Ashton's POV
It was a fact, I hated waking up alone. My apartment was quieter, colder, it didn't smell like Kat.
I woke up every morning wishing she was next to me, I liked watching her sleep, her eyebrows flexing every few seconds.
Instead I woke up to Maxie scratching my duvet, barking at me because she was hungry.
Although this was how I lived before Kat it didn't feel like this. I was so accustomed to Kat, I didn't even realize it.
I liked seeing her making breakfast. I liked walking in on her brushing her teeth, her hair in a bun on her head. I liked watching her blog on her laptop, a coffee mug always in reach. I also liked sneaking pictures of her, even though she and I both knew we did it, no one would bring it up. It was our thing.
And even though we were still together and I practically would be over her apartment every other day, it didn't feel the same. I missed being within inches away from her 24/7.
I was addicted to her. She was my drug, the only thing that kept me going, the only thing that was on my mind all day and all night. She was all I needed for the rest of my life.
And yeah - it scared me. I was young still, my whole life still ahead of me, unplanned and blank for adventures yet I already felt like I had everything. Kat was my everything.
But in the back of my mind - my little voice - a little voice, always reminded me I had nothing going for myself.
Kat was working at a company doing what she enjoyed the most. Yet here I was - working at American Apparel and a college dropout.
Kat would eventually realize that I'm just holding her back, she'd probably go even higher in the company, making more money, meeting new - better people and forget about me.
And it wasn't impossible. Kat was beautiful, she could get any man weak in the knees within seconds without her even trying. That's what's I loved about her - she didn't try.
She never tried to be someone she wasn't. She never wore something to try and be 'better looking'. She never cared what she looked like infront of me. She was who she was and I adored her for that. She wasn't like any other girl.
She was my girl.
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"Babe, I really want to see you." I whine into the receiver. I hadn't seen Kat in a whole three days and I felt like a love sick puppy. But I didn't care, when your in love your in love and you don't give a fuck how whiny you sound. Well... I didn't.
"I'm sorry - I have to stay late because there's a clothing release at 8pm and we have to be the first to post and review it." She says, I can faintly hear her fingers typing against a computer.
"You know your killing me right?" I chuckle, staring at Maxie as she drags her butt against the living room floor.
"Oh hush - you stayed at my place a day or two ago."
"Three days." I correct her, she chuckles. "I think I'm having Kat withdrawals." I say biting my lip knowing Kat's cheeks are probably a crimson red.
"I can come over tomorrow after work or something. I should go before Nathan catches me on the phone.." She says and I nod although she can't see me.
"Alright, I talk to you later, love you." I sigh.
"Love you too." And with that the line goes dead and I'm left back to an empty eerie apartment, the afternoon sun shining through my window.
"Maxie, you think the boys are busy?" I ask her even though I know she's a dog and can't respond.
I sigh as I dial up Calum's number, he answers on the third ring.
"Mate! Haven't heard from you in a minute! What's up?" He answers cheerfully into the phone.
"Nothing much, I'm bored out my mind. Want to go grab a beer or something?"
"Sure! I never turn down beer, should I call up the boys?"
"Yeah - meet up at Hooch in about 20 minutes?"
Calum agrees and within minutes I'm changing into jeans and a tank top, lacing my shoes and ruffling up my long hair.
Guy time is the next best thing when your girlfriend is busy.
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I enjoyed this chapter very much, I always love Ashton POVS. How'd you guys like it? Also - there's more in store. ;-) this book will probably be a semi long one, I don't wanna write more than 100 chapters so I hope you guys continue till the end (whenever that will be) . I want this book to be as realistic and entertaining as possible so have faith in me and definitely always give feedback, good or back. I want you guys to enjoy it as much as possible. Alsoooooo if anyone knows any good cover makers or trailer makers please let me know or if you know how to make any send me them and I'll dedicate a chapter to you!
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