The drive back to my place seemed longer than it should have but nevertheless I got there in a matter of minutes.
I couldn't help but sprint to my door, fresh tears on my face due to the crying I was doing on my way home. My fingers stumble with the keys but once they're in, I open the door, slamming it behind me.
Ashton's head whips around from his place on the couch, his eyes worried. He stands up, his face full of confusion.
I just sprint to him, my arms connecting around his neck, his arms connecting behind my back. My legs wrap around his waist, my face in his neck.
"Are you oka-"
"I love you. I love you. I. Love. You. Ashton, I really take you for granted and I shouldn't. I should tell you everything and share everything with you. Like how I've kept my thoughts to myself with the whole 'mom' situation but just know it's resolved and I feel like I am a new person. Before I met you I didn't know what love was. I was a lost soul and sad one at that and everyone I knew never loved me it was all unrequited but not with you. You will never know how much I love you and how grateful I am to have you. Oh my god, I love you." I rush out, my hands on either sides of his face, his expression is stunned - shit I would be too.
But it's long lived when he attaches his lips to mine. It's rushed and sloppy but it's perfect because it's with Ashton. His hands grip my waist, my hands sliding into his hair.
"I love you too." Ashton says into my mouth and I can't help but smile, a few fresh tears escaping my eyes.
"I love you, I love you, I love you." He mumbles onto my lips. I place my forehead on his, my body still being held up in his grasp.
"I did lose weight. A lot actually. I put myself to work at the gym to keep my mind occupied from the hecticness. I moved out because I didn't want to live off you any longer than I did and.... Because I thought we weren't going to last." I breath out. I need to tell him everything. I want to be a new person.
"Why did you think that?" He asks, his voice slightly out of breath.
"Because you were so perfect and I so wasn't, still am not but you just seem like you have everything under control." I shrug, my eyes worriedly looking in his.
"Well I don't. No one does. Nobody's perfect." He whispers and I nod, my teeth biting down on my bottom lip.
"You know, you've said everything I've ever wanted you to say to me." Ashton says after a few moments of silence.
"I'm sorry it took me so long." I whisper to him, my fingers playing with the hair at the nape of his neck.
"It doesn't matter - you said them and that's good enough for me." He says breaking into a grin and taking my lips in another kiss. This time he falls onto the couch, our lips still intact.
"So I'm guessing the dinner went well?" He asks as he pulls away, for once I didn't feel uncomfortable sitting on his lap or answering his question.
Goddamit this felt good.
"It was rough in the beginning, of course we cried and did a lot of talking... I won't start calling her my mother and we won't be having her over everyday but it's a work in progress." I say biting my lip as a smile plays on my lips at Ashton's face.
It's holding his signature goofy grin, his dimples deep as usual, his hazel eyes full of adornment.
"God, your amazing you know that?" He asks and I furrow my eyebrows, my head tilting to the side in confusion.
"What do you mean?"
"You did a complete 360 on your life and it wasn't because anyone, it was because of you. You did it. You fought, you conquered, and now your here. You are just such a great person. It's not easy from being so closed off and scared to being this open with me." Ashton says seriously but then quickly smirks at me, holding his fist to his lips.
"Let me ask you, Kat Greene, what's your next life step?" Ashton asks pretending to move the microphone to my lips.
My cheeks get warm at his words. This goofball. My goofball.
"Um I think I'm going to meet my boyfriends parents." I chuckle. Ashton nods at me, sending me a wink in the process.
"What a great step."
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Ashton's POV
What the fuck just happened?
I don't get it. Two hours ago she was nothing but a body of anger and sadness and now she's this new revised girl. My girl. She did it. Goddamit she is who she always wanted to be and I can't help but feel proud of her.
I honestly never pictured the day she'd pour herself out to me. I never pictured her talking about her weight to me or how sad she was but she did. After she told me she wanted to meet my parents, we cuddled in her bed, her mouth moving the whole night, I told her she didn't have to tell me everything - not that I didn't mind, but she wanted to.
And for someone like Kat, someone who was full of sadness and resentment and just didn't have a good enough life to speak to freely about it - it's just astonishing.
I can't help but think that this is a fresh start for us. A better start for us. No holding back, of course Kat isn't going to be some preppy happy go lucky girlfriend but I'm sure she'll just be more relieved day by day and that's all that matters.
She's all that matters.
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Kat has done a complete 360 (just like Ashton said lol) i hope it didn't sound too rushed, this book is coming to an end and this is just Kat transitioning before the final chapter ;) (of course it won't be till chapter 100) but it's pretty close if you ask me. Lol anyways yeah Kat is just that type of person where she barely realizes what good she has till it's really shoved down her throat! Lol I'm but yeah 13 more chapters!!! Eeek! Most of them will be gushy and cute - who knows ;) and I'm planning something pretty sweet for the final chapter so let's hope all goes well!
Anyways,
Happy reading!xx
