Songs for the chapter: Photograph - Ed Sheeran
Ashton's POV
She was hiding something. I knew she was. She was turning into her old self, shutting me out from herself. I don't know why she did that - we already shared so much, she had nothing to lose when it came to me, us.
I was tempted to follow her but I decided to give her space. Whenever she'd blow up at me - back when we were friends - she'd get away from me and the last thing I want to do is suffocate her.
I rubbed my hands over my face, hearing the sound of her bathroom faucet turn on.
I didn't picture the morning going like this. What was she even doing up? She looked like corpse on this couch, dark circles under her big brown eyes, empty coffee cups.
Yeah it slightly pisses me off that she still doesn't trust me that much - that I don't have her whole heart but I can't do anything really, I just have to continue to try with her.
But now that she's blown up at me, my worry has risen for her and now I'm terrified to let her go on the business trip tomorrow. I don't want her to do anything to jeopardize herself or even her job.
After a while, Kat still hasn't come out the bathroom so I take the liberty of going to check on her.
"Kat?" I ask through the locked door, my knuckle lightly tapping the door.
She doesn't respond but I hear a few sniffles before a bit of huddling behind the door, before the door is cracked open.
I stare at Kat, her eyes puffy from crying no doubt. She still has under eye circles, her frail delicate fingers are fidgeting in front of her.
"I'm sorry - for lashing at you." She whispers, her voice is hoarse and tired. It's tired.
I wrap my arms around her, pulling her into my chest. "It's alright - I should tread more lightly on that topic so for that - I'm sorry."
Kat sniffles again and I peer down at her, her big eyes staring up at me tiredly.
"It's just hard..." She croaks and I nod, my hand going to the back of her hair, running my fingers through it.
I wasn't going to ask her about it. I knew her better than to ask her now, I'll have to wait.
"I know baby, but everything gets better with time.." I kiss her head, Kat's fingers clutching onto my shirt.
"Let's go lay down, yeah?" I ask and she nods. We walk to her bed, Kat climbs in with ease, me following after her.
I pull Kat into my chest, her head laying flat against it.
"You know," I say all of a sudden, staring at her ceiling. "I want the best for you. Whatever your best is, I want you to have it." I say licking my dry lips.
"Whether it's with me or not." I say quietly and Kat instantly lifts her head, her eyes wide and scared.
"A-Ashton, w-what are you saying?" I shake my head, my hand caressing her cheek.
"Nothing babe, I just - if your ever unhappy, let me know. Your not eternally tied to me." I say, my throat getting dry at my words.
"I want you eternally though." She croaks, her eyes filling with more tears. I cradle her face in my hands, my eyes getting a bit glossy as well.
"I want you eternally as well, baby."
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I got a bit emotional not even going to lie. What do you guys think is happening in the near future? Hmm.
Happy reading! Xx
