Ashton's POV
Our airplane tickets were bought, packing was to begin probably starting tomorrow, and I was excited as fuck.
I'd never met someone who did what Kat did. Honestly, I can't stop talking about how damn proud I am of her. I don't think I could even do what she did - going from so closed off and so scared of affection and letting me in to finally allowing me to love her with all my being.
It was pretty damn amazing. She's pretty damn amazing.
I know she is it for me. She is stuck with me forever - I know it. God wouldn't have let me meet her if she wasn't suppose to be with me for a long time. We were fate.
"Ashton? You home?" Her voice travels through my place. "In here!" I yell, drying off Maxie with a towel. I had just given her a bath.
I finish Maxie off with her odor mist, spraying her just as Kat stands in the doorframe of the bathroom.
I look up at her, a small nervous smile on her pink lips.
"You cut your hair." Is the first thing that leaves my mouth, as I stand up, wiping my hands with the towel I was holding.
Kat nods, her cheeks red as she pushes a strand of hair behind her ear bashfully.
It wasn't a big difference. She use to have her hair down to the middle of her back and now it falls just below her shoulders, I see a few layers - I liked it.
"You look beautiful - as always." I compliment, grabbing her waist to pull her towards me, attaching our lips in a kiss.
"You like it? You don't think it's too short?" She asks staring in the mirror behind me.
"No it looks good, why'd you cut it?" I ask and she shrugs, her arms crossing over her chest.
"Wanted to do something with it so... Yeah." She chuckles and I nod, letting my fingers grab the ends and twirling it lightly in my hand.
"Feels soft and light." I add and she nods. "Got it thinned out."
I nod, letting her hair go and wrapping my arms around her body, hugging her just cause.
"Ashton." She says chuckling in to my shoulder. I walk us backwards, moving us so I sit on the edge of my bed, Kat standing in between my legs.
"So I booked the tickets." I say and Kat nods, her teeth biting into her bottom lip. "Well now it just feels even more real." She chuckles and I nod.
"There's nothing to worry about - it'll be fun." I say reassuring her, she nods, both her hands on my shoulders. Her fingers trail the stitching around my collar - her knuckles ghosting around my neck.
"Your a tease - you know that?" I chuckle, raising a brow at her. Her cheeks redden as she shakes her head no. "I'm not - honestly." She laughs and I roll my eyes, "I beg to differ."
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I enjoyed anytime spent with Kat, but I mostly enjoyed the silent times. The times we were just so engrossed in our presences that we didn't even bother to speak. There was nothing to be said.
I lived for those moments. I've never met a girl where I can just simply sit next to and relax with. Sometimes we don't even touch, sometimes we keep our hands to ourselves. Of course it's usually me with my hands innocently on her by that was just me, I loved having her as close as I do, as close as I can.
"Maxie - come here girl." Kat says sitting up, beckoning Maxie to come to her - which she does within seconds. Maxie loved Kat from the start.
"Good girl." Kat muses as she rubs Maxie's fat body. Maxie quickly falls to the ground, laying on her back so Kat can rub her stomach.
"Y'know I don't think I can get a dog knowing how much Maxie likes me.." Kat chuckles turning to me.
I shrug, my arms behind my head. "I'm sure she'd like your dog."
Kat nods slowly, her hair blowing in the wind. We currently were sat under a tree in the park - blanket under us. I was napping but of course I felt Kat stir next to me.
"Yeah but my heart only fits Maxie." Kat says bringing her face closer to Maxie's, wiggling her nose with hers.
I can't help but picture Maxie being a child, our child. Kat would be such a good mother. I know she would try to give our child the best life it can have - considering how hers was.
But I can see it now, Kat dressing our child like her - if it's a girl. She'd always put our baby first, she'd be so damn protective but so damn loving. Come to think of it - I'd be jealous of our child, getting all the love that use to be for me.
But in all seriousness, Kat would be the best mother out there. I don't even know why I continue to picture her as a mother of my children but it doesn't seem unrealistic.
"Are you even listening to me?" Kat chuckles, slapping my chest lightly.
"Sorry - zoned out." I give her a smile as she playfully rolls her eyes at me.
"Anyways I was saying that Maxie should come with us to see your mom." Kat says tying Maxie's leash to the tree next to us. She turns to me , laying on her side with expectant eyes.
"Maxie is going to Calum's place." I say and Kat pouts at me. "She always goes with him when I leave, she'll be fine." I say with a smile.
Kat nods, signing at me. "I guess." She elongates her word, letting her head fall on to our blanket.
"Can I ask you a question?" I say staring at her, might as well see her view on things, hm?
"Sure,"
"How do you feel about having kids." I watch her intently, seeing if she wears any of her emotions on her sleeves.
She bites her lip, her eyes going from mine to the blanket.
"I - uh - Ashton isn't that too soon? We haven't even.." Kat speaks fast, her words nervous.
I chuckle, placing my hand on her waist to calm her nerves.
"I know I was just wondering..." I shrug. Kat nods, her teeth continuing to bite into her lip.
"I probably should have told you this in the beginning of our relationship but I think I want to wait to... Have sex... After marriage." Kat says quietly, her eyes staring at me worriedly.
I smile at her, bringing her closer to my chest. "That's perfectly fine - now let's go to the jewelry store." I joke at her and she chuckles, she playful rolls her eyes at me.
"But on a serious note.... When did you think you'd want to be married?" I ask staring at her, hopefully she doesn't catch on to what I'm putting down.
Kat sighs, shrugging her shoulders. "Honestly whenever the time is right, we obviously started saying I love you to each other within like two months of dating so I mean... We move pretty fast." I nod at her words, a chuckle escaping my lips.
"Plus were not getting any younger." I add and she nods.
This gives me so much leverage. So many thoughts are running through my mind and I know I want to marry Kat and I know I want kids but I don't want to pressure her. I'd never pressure her.
"Should we go back to our place? I'm starving." Kat says yawning, I nod and stand up, getting our belongings and walking out the park - hand in hand.
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Nothing really important in this chapter but I've been thinking lately and I might want to do a sequel.... Maybe. I don't know. It's just a thought considering this book ends in 11 chapters. Tell me what you think?
Love you guys and happy reading!xx
