Opposites (Shuri x reader)

Part 48

"Thank you for doing this" I smiled looking at Aneka who was sitting next to the window as the jet smoothly hovered above the sea.

"You're welcome" she nodded her head.

"See...that phone I got you came in handy" I smirked making her laugh.

"If Okoye finds out about it she will kill me" she raised her eyebrows at me "But...I can't see Shuri stuck in her lab anymore...She won't talk to anyone, she won't leave that room at all" I felt a small relief in my body knowing she wasn't completely fine about leaving, but at the same time, a wave of guilt invaded my chest hearing Aneka talking about her. Knowing I was the one who made her feel that way, the same way I've felt for days in a row. "You know...? Shuri acted this exact same way before you arrived in Wakanda. Her Mother and Brother's passing was too much for her to handle, and we started to get worried. So as soon as she told us about the exchange program, the thought of having someone new around felt so right..." she sighed looking through the window before landing her eyes on me again "And we were right. You were a fresh page for her... Suddenly she was excited about something again... She would get up earlier in the morning, and go to her lab waiting for you to wake up and go say hello to her"

"What?" I mumbled feeling my insides ripping apart.

"She wouldn't admit it to anyone..." she chuckled " But she would just stand there, doing nothing, waiting for the moment those doors would open to let you in. And she finally was able to make some jokes, and talk to people... And the day you were taken..." she sighed shaking her head "We all knew we had to do something... She was frantic. She actually yelled at me one time. She gathered our whole army just to come to find you, and we obeyed. Not only for you but because we knew she needed you"

"I didn't know that" I whispered holding back some tears "I guess I fucked it up"

"Well... You're here..." She smiled at me "That doesn't seem like someone who fucked it up"

"Thank you Aneka" I smiled at her.

The sun burned on my face as I took a deep breath realizing how much I'd missed that country. The colors, the smell, and the people around me. Aneka had left me alone saying she had Dora practice, but told me Shuri was in her lab. I slowly walked into the building feeling all eyes on me, noticing my body slightly shaking with nerves, but I didn't stop. I made my way up to the elevator, got in, and pressed the button of the top floor taking deep breaths all the way up until the door opened letting my eyes find Shuri standing right in front of me, staring at a digital board with some graphics on it.

"Shuri" I mumbled walking out of the elevator and slowly moving toward her.

"What are you doing here?!" she turned around facing me.

She looked exhausted. Her eyes were watery, surrounded by dark circles and her mouth was a little dry making me frown my eyes with guilt.

"I wanted to see you" I finally managed to speak but she kept quiet "I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry" I repeated feeling my voice crack.

"You shouldn't have come Y/N" she mumbled turning away and keeping her eyes on the screen.

"What?" I whispered feeling the hole in my stomach coming back.

"You shouldn't have come here. Nothing is going to change" her voice was cold without any emotion.

"I'm here. And I want to mend things up" I quickly walked over to her grabbing her arm and making her turn to me "

"I think we've talked about everything we needed to talk" she said not even looking at me.

"C'mon Shuri... Don't do that!" I sighed.

"Oh I'm sorry...Am I hurting you?" she frowned her eyebrows finally staring into my eyes "You have no idea what I'm feeling...You have no idea Y/N! You think you can just come in here, and say I'm sorry and everything is alright?!"

"NO!" I yelled making her tilt her head.

She looked around the room mumbling some words making everyone around leave, leaving us all alone.

"Everything is not alright!" I repeated myself "I know I fucked things up, and I know this is a long shot for me to try, but I want to...I really want to... All the things you said, you were right. I'm the one who's too afraid of something bad happening, and it scares me so much Shuri...Not having you around... You're the one person I think I couldn't afford to lose" I felt my tears starting to run down my face using my arm to wipe them off "And just the thought of it was too hard... I mean... All I could think about was what would happen when you came back home. Could I just leave my dad behind? Could I just leave college? Or leave you?" My voice cracked a little.

"I told you to come with me" she whispered making me look at her again.

"I know you did. And I'm here" I shook my head "And I don't wanna leave. I don't wanna be without you..."

"You were the one who choose this" she frowned her eyebrows at me as I saw a tear falling down her cheek.

"I was an idiot" I nodded my head grabbing her hand a little tighter. "I'm so sorry..." I sighed, but she kept quiet with her eyes on the floor "I fucking love you" the words finally came out of my mouth as I stretched myself up to her, my hands holding her face pulling her closer to me as I attached my lips to hers feeling my heart race before she pulled away staring into my eyes with uncertainty. "I'm sorry" I quickly said.

But as I was about to take a step back, her hands pulled me by my waist holding me closer to her, before she kissed me back. Our tongues battled against each other, as if we were consuming one another, my chest was pacing against hers, my hands grabbing her by her neck trying to pull her even closer to me. I could feel the tears on her face on my cheeks making me want to hold her even tighter. 

"I'm ready" I whispered pulling back as my eyes locked with hers "I'm so fucking ready"