Say Yes

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Inigo

Kung gaano ako katagal nakahiga sa loob ng tree house na nakatitig lang sa kawalan, hindi ko sigurado. Halos hilahin na ako nina Lance at Geonhee para magpahinga. Pero kahit anong pilit kong pumikit, hindi ko magawang mahagilap ang tulog ko kahit dalawang araw na akong puyat.

My body is tired. My mind is tired. My heart is tired.

Kung paanong halos nagiging okay na ang lahat, sa farm, sa amin ni Chiara, it seems like nature wanted to intervene with my happiness, worst of worsts, this time reminds me so much of one of my most painful loses, my parents' death.

Andaming tumatakbo sa utak ko at napapagod na ako. Why does it seem emotional turmoil never ends?

Pagsubok na naman sa farm na halos limang taon ko ng pinaglaanan ng dugo, pawis at oras ko and then my relationship with Chiara. God seemed to not like me that much. Parang ayaw na niyang ipahinga ang katawan at puso ko.

Hundreds of lives relying on my hands, as all of us are on the edge because of the upcoming typhoon. Then I need to fetch my girlfriend from the airport.

Hindi ko siya nakumbinsi na ilipat ang flight niya kahit na sinabi ko na sa kanya na nausod ang visit kahit na it was totally cancelled and moved to next week.

I dont want her to see me on a complete mess. I dont't want her to come in the middle of a disastrous typhoon.

She had her own burdens. Ayoko ng makadagdag pa.

My phone beeped endlessly. I know its Chichi. Or maybe Charles. Nakikita ko sa notifs ko sa harap ang pangalan ni Chi. And I chose to ignore. Hindi pa ako makahagilap ng tamang reasoning na hindi siya mag aalala. Or I wished she was still mad at me, not bothering to message me until tomorrow.

Gusto kong magtanong kung bakit?

Because for the first time, I wanted to admit I am tired.

I closed my eyes intently, run happy thoughts, happy memories, count endlessly.

Maybe God pitied me. Sleep finally crept into me, giving me temporary peace.

🌳🐄🌳

Madilim na sa loob ng tree house ng magising ako. Una kong dinampot ang cellphone ko, finally getting the courage to check Chiara's messages. Andami na niyang messages at maaring galit na siya. The last one give me a relief feeling.

Moved my flight to Saturday, very early morning. Wag mo na akong sunduin, ihahatid ako ng pinsan ni Charles. Just prepare for the visit.

Thank God she moved her flight. Thank God she was not checking PH news.

Based on PAGASA's recent news, maaring umabot ng Storm Signal 4 sa Santa Isabel, and the damage it can bring could be disastrous.

Pero tahimik ngayon, malakas lakas kanina ang ulan, at ngayon halos ambon lang.

Like the calm before the storm. Just like it was five years ago. It was also peaceful at that time, and my parents don't want me alone when the typhoon hits Santa Isabel. Nagpilit silang umuwi galing Maynila dahil tahimik naman ang panahon despite the storm signal.

Then the accident happened.

I replied to Chiara's message before I head out of the tree house. It was almost 7PM.

**Ok. I might be busy tomorrow whole day. How was your day?

Nagdrive na ako pabalik ng bahay, still extremely worried for tomorrow. I arrived home finally after two days of staying in the mango area and tree house.