"Great Pretender"
What you see isn't the truth
Most of it is lies built for the safety of yours
Truly my secrets will break you if I let them out
But a part of me wants to announce it to the world
For you to understand why it hurts
So come with me behind the scenes
Nothing is truly what it seems
I hope you know that I tried so hard
I tried to hold myself high, smile in front of everyone
Even if I'm sad and I want to cry whenever I see you
If you could read my language that you refuse to understand,
If you only knew the fast blinking of my eyes
It serves as a barrier for the tears that are about to fall
If you could only hear the cracking of my voice
Along with the cracks in my heart
If you could see the pool of tears squeezed from my eyes
By your cold hands and by all of your lies
It is hard to watch myself crumble not knowing how to fix my wounds
You are a messed up tattoo in my mind, I want you gone from my head
The ink of your lies slipped through my skin and now I can't get it out
The pain of needle eyes, needle tongue, needle words
Made it feel like a mess, and made the wounds even worse
The feelings I felt before already faded away
Oh I wish it really did
It hurts what you did to me
It hurts that you made me look like a fool
It hurts my pride that I thought I had a chance
It hurts that you made me hope for something that was never there
I tried, I fell, I liked, I loved, I gave it my all, I gave it a chance
Then I break, I lose, I cry, I write, and I die at the end of the line
And I lied when I said I was fine
It hurts, I can't emphasize it enough, it hurts so much
I don't want to hurt anymore
But no matter how I try I still can't burn your place in my heart
And those files of yours in my brain
So I am fine, I am going to pretend that I am fine
I manage to act like I don't care
Even if I like you that much to think about you all-day
I manage to fake it and walk away
So I can just continue the act that I am not hurting
Therefore I think at the very least I deserve praise
A round of applause for my dedication
Pump me with more lies, smile to impress the painter
Clap your hands for the show of a great pretender.
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