"Voices In My Head"
The voices in my head are active at night
When the lights are down,
When everyone is sleeping,
During the times you decided to say "Hi"
Or ask how I'm doing, or am I still alive
They are active in the morning as I walk in the hallway
As I start the day and head to class
As I eat my lunch, as I read in the library
They are active most of the time
They are more active than I wanted them to
They are loud when you are silent
When you don't call
When you don't text
When you don't talk to me
They are also loud when you don't stop talking
When we spend hours telling each other stories
Cracking jokes and making fun of our problems
They are loud when I hide in the corner
Thinking about how I don't fit in
They are loud when I let myself shine
I think about how I might seem boastful to some
They are loud when I feel like nothing
They are loud when I feel like I can't do anything
They are loud when I feel pretty
Even louder when I feel ugly
They are loud like trombones beside my ear
My eardrums are gone I can't hear the truth
I can't hear the alarms, I chose to ignore the signs
They are loud, louder than the beat of my heart
Louder than the sound of happiness rushing to my lips
Instead of forming a smile, I frown in silence
They are loud so I stay silent
Lost in the chaos behind my outer being
The voices in my head, are like a ghost that hunts me
Begging me to notice them, convincing me to listen to their complaints
Each of those voices has their own story, their own feelings
Anxiety feels like a fire is going on in my head
Some of the voices tell me that maybe there is hope waiting somewhere
Most of them mock me for my stupid decisions in life
Some of them think I can do better
There is someone better out there for me
But most of them tell me I am unlovable
No one is meant to be my company
Most of them think I don't deserve anything
I cry at night cause I don't know what to do
And as I let my tears fall, I find myself drowning in sadness
I mean, I fell asleep
My dreams are fantasies
Delusions my mind makes to pretend
Please turn it down
Ask them to stop
Plead for them to shut up
Let me live a day with just my own voice
Only from my lips and not from the regrets
Regrets and fear that shapeshift into a ghost
Voices that echo in my mind
From the minute I woke up to the minute I rest
Let there be silence in this messy town
Lock the doors, barricade the windows
Put down every wall, trust no one
I want to have peace
If I can't have happiness then maybe just peace
Peace of mind to accept
My story is a tragedy and not a happy one
I don't need a hundred voices to tell me what to do
Life made it clear, I lost this war against fate
I lost this war against you.
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