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POEM #60: VILLAIN

"Villain"

I tried to be a hero but I failed, they said it wasn't for me

Then I became a villain instead but I am only hurting myself

I am a villain because you couldn't save me

You are the battle, you are the savior and you were the one who killed me

You were the cure but you were the cause of the pain

When I was on the verge of death you were busy fighting another battle

But then again, I'm not really sure if you would save me if you were there

All this time I thought I was the princess needing of saving

I was wrong, I was the villain pretending to be the heroine

I thought this was my story with you but it was actually your story with her

I was just a villain who try to ruin your beautiful love story

Who wrote this plot?! I didn't agree to this role.

Maybe I'm not a bad person, I was just broken

You were God's favorite and I was a broken toy

He wouldn't give you a broken thing to spend your life with

His favorite child deserve the best and it wasn't me

I like to think that's the reason why you don't like me

I wasn't meant for you, you weren't meant for me

Just to avoid the fact that I made the mistake of hoping for something

The pain made me a villain, so how is it always my fault?

I also didn't want to be the character everyone hated and hurt everyone

Why is it only about you? What about what I feel?

I would want a happy ending too but this is all I can get

The role of the villain that is killed and dies in the end

"Pity the fallen one", "I'll be there for you since I feel bad for hurting you"

Well I don't need to be pitied, I don't need any consolation

You were the one who killed the villain, you were the hero

You killed a person but everybody cheered, you weren't called a villain

The only thing I did was to love you but I became the antagonist

Maybe love can cause more shedding of blood than swords

Maybe love was the sin that's why you persecuted me

I can try to get my revenge by using the same weapon, LOVE

But I can't hurt you because you will not let me

I can't break you if your heart doesn't belong to me

Maybe we are just the same, you are a villain too

I am only yearning for love like a human would

I only wanted love but life couldn't give that to me

I want to say it in your face, in front of everybody else

I only loved you, I didn't do anything bad enough to deserve this hell

I am not a villain, I just went for the thing I thought I could get

I didn't know you belong to someone else, you told me there was no one

I didn't know you were not ready or whatever reason you have to turn me away

I am a wise woman, if you didn't give me hope I wouldn't be a fool for you

My intelligence will tell me to stop but since you keep your door open

I took the chance to slip in and introduce myself

I didn't think it would cause my death and it would be my end

You only beat me because I let you

You only crushed me because I loved you

Keep that in my mind every time you look at my grave

Every time I look at you with sadness in my eyes

I was once written as a villain, I hope the next story will be my own

Not just a book where I play the role to move the plot for someone else

And just make the hero improve as a person for the actual heroine

I am not just a stepping stone, I am not a villain

I am not just a side character, I am not going to be the victim

I will write my own story where I'll finally be the happy one in the end.

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