"What I Miss"
1. I miss the jokes and the stupid stuff that you say
Those jokes are bad but I loved it anyway
You still tried even if you knew it wouldn't be good
It's cute how you react to people being confused by your joke
I laughed at every joke that came out of your mouth
Looking back at the past I realize,
Everything you did brought happiness to my soul
We pray for your dead jokes and laugh at the thought of it
But now it is my heart that has lost its life and I am now the joke
Go on, laugh at me, laugh at my stupidity, laugh at my misery
Your jokes that made me smile are still recorded in my brain
The heart that smiled before is now squirming in pain
If this is a joke, I must admit it is a cruel one
I wish that you not feeling the same way is just a bad joke
But who am I kidding?
The storm already passed and our ship already sunk.
2. I miss our old conversations or how we talk to each other
You don't talk to me in person
You preferred texting or hiding behind words
I am hiding behind my own words too right now
I miss the fact that you send funny pictures or memes
I miss reacting and viewing the videos you sent me
I miss exchanging screenshots of our YouTube home screen
I miss being someone you can share everything and anything with
Now we try to ignore and deny it but awkwardness fills the screen
You take back the things that you want to say
Since I might misunderstand them again
While I fight the urge to talk to you every single day
You told me "Talk to me if you want, I don't mind"
Well I can't talk to you like I did before
I am afraid that if I did, I will fall for you again
So I can only miss how we are back then.
3. I miss seeing you every day and feeling happiness
I miss flirting around every time our eyes met
Now I can't look you in the eye because it causes me pain
You wouldn't even look at me
I mean you never really did look at me
It's funny and cruel at the same time
Knowing that you are the first person I look for in a room
But your eyes never saw me as a beautiful sight
You were never mesmerized by my smile or my eyes
Although that's the case, I still miss staring at you silently
I missed stealing glances
You were my bad habit back then.
4. I miss feeling tingles in my heart whenever you are near
I miss having fun with you doing stupid things
I miss laughing with you and having little arguments
I miss the excitement, I miss the flames even if it is fake
Now, having you around gives me pain
You became a needle, a dagger, a sword stabbed in my soul
Love betrayed me and it never came to you when you’re with me
That is the saddest part of it,
It was just me, only me.
5. I miss silently listening to love songs when I sit next to you
Each word of love is like honey, sweet and sticky
It stuck with me up until this point
They still linger in my head
I imagined your face in those love songs
I guess it's true when they say sad songs won't break your heart
It's the happy ones that will break the faucet in your eyes
Every time I hear those love songs it makes me sad
I can feel the cracks growing bigger, I can feel myself bleed
Those love songs are alcohol to my wounds
It was made to heal me but hearing it causes me pain
I have to hate a song I once loved because it reminds me of you
But I only loved them because it makes me think of you
I avoid them and during those times that I can't, I lose myself
I am left staring in the middle of nowhere
Trying to remember who I was and where did I go wrong.
6. I miss the butterflies you gave by mistake
I miss being nervous and not knowing what to do
Those butterflies are dead now
I don't know where they are
They didn't belong to me anyway
It was supposed to be hers
Maybe that's why they are gone,
It just wasn't meant to be.
7. I miss the longing feeling when you are not there
I miss missing you, looking for you
I miss having a reason to find you
I miss having something to wait for
I miss feeling something other than pain and sadness
I don't want to assume anything that is not going to happen
And I am glad that I am not confused anymore
I am happy that I finally know where to stand
I finally learned my lesson, I already know my place
But honestly, I hate where I am standing right now
This is not what I want, this is not what I dreamed of
I hate it because I know this is the farthest I can go
The truth is, I miss hoping for a mutual feeling
I miss hoping for something
I miss having hope.
8. These are the things I can only miss
I can only look at it in my memory
Memories that make my heart bleed every single time
If I could go back in time I would do it all again
Give me a time machine I promise I wouldn't mind the pain
Because missing you like this is killing me
And I don't want to die so save me
I said, can you still save me?
A/N: Hello, I would love to hear your thoughts about this poem. You can write your favorite line or the phrase/line you like the most in this poem. Mine is down in the comment section. I'll be waiting for your answer. Once again thank you for reading! Love you guys, bye!
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