Jennie
After years of listening to Jisoo try to get me out in the dating world again, the fateful day has arrived. I'm out on a date, that is not really a date.
Remarkably enough, Ella put up very little fuss when I left. I don't know what kind of superpower Lisa has over my child but when Lisa came to pick me up, the tears stopped. All Lisa did was sit down with her, explain that she was taking me out and asked her to behave for Jisoo. Next thing I know, Josh is sitting on the floor colouring with her and she happily said bye to us.
Lisa was always a people person and could make friends with anyone. It's something that I was always slightly envious of her about, how easy she could talk to someone. She always made sure everyone was included, which for someone as shy as me, was always welcome.
As I watch her interact with her team mates and their partners, I'm reminded of how generous a person Lisa is. We've finished our meals and all the speeches and awards have been given out. I realise that I have been having a great time, standing next to Lisa gives me so much confidence.
Maybe Jisoo was right and I do need to get out every once in a while. Not that I haven't been thinking of Ella the whole night. I've been feeling so frazzled for too long now and tonight feels like a reboot. I want Ella to grow up with more confidence than I did, and the only way for that, is by showing her.
"Would you like to dance?" Lisa asks.
When she says that, I'm transported back in time to a night very similar to this one. We were all dressed up, and had just finished eating when the dance floor was opened up.
I didn't say yes to Lisa's dance request back then. Oh, how I wanted to, but the fear of people realising that I was gay, got the better of me. I didn't say yes, when I should have.
Now a different fear has gotten control of my tongue.
