Jennie
"Mummy." Ella calls as she runs into my arms. Only a few weeks ago the chance of leaving her overnight would have been non-existent. Now she can barely say hi to me before going back to whatever game she's playing with the boys.
Jisoo laughs at the quick interaction, beckoning me to the kitchen to chat.
"Did she behave?"
"Good as gold. Now what about your night, how did that go?" Jisoo asks with her back to me, puttering around.
"Where to start. Let's see, while I'll was waiting outside the restaurant for Lisa, I ran into Deb."
Jisoo whips around so fast that the tea goes flying from the cup she'd just picked up. "Shit." She says, while putting the cup down and grabbing a tea towel.
"Are you okay? Did it go over your hands?" I ask worried that she burnt herself, I should have probably timed that better.
"I'm fine don't worry. What's this about Deb?"
"She was going into the restaurant."
"Did you speak with her?"
"Yeah." I sigh, remembering the awful encounter.
"Did she apologise for breaking your engagement? Did she apologise for leaving you a week before your due date, causing you to go into early labour?"
"What do you think?"
"Oh, you don't want to know what I really think." She says hotly, before saying exactly what she thinks. "I think she is a sorry excuse for a human being. She preys on women, telling them how special they are. Only it's not in a sweet way, no she does it in a way that makes it sound like she's the only person who will ever think that way about you. She's manipulative. I think the best thing that she ever did for you, was to leave."
Wow, that was a pretty real reality check. Everything she said was true but it still hurt to hear, to know that I fell for those pretty words. I was the perfect target. Insecure and shy from lack of parental love, only open about my sexuality for less than a year when I met her. Still heartbroken over Lisa. I was a baby lesbian with confidence issues, easy pickings for a player like Deb.
Jisoo grips my hands in hers, forcing my eyes up from the table. "You were always too good for her. She needed you more than you needed her and it killed me that you never saw that. You're my baby cousin and I wanted to protect you but I couldn't. Jen, you are bloody amazing. I've always known it; Ella knows it and so does Lisa."
"What would I do without you?"
"Live a very boring life." She says causing us both to chuckle. "Now tell me, how did Lisa react to Deb, please tell me that she knocked her out?"
"Actually, they never met. Lisa didn't turn up at the restaurant."
"Wait, what!?" Jisoo's tone quickly changing from jovial to protective big cousin.
I explain what happen, all the misunderstanding and the argument. She calms down by the end but she does threaten to slap Lisa upside the head for being stupid. Then I make the mistake of telling her that we slept together.
"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh, finally. I don't know how you've gone this long without getting laid." She chuckles.
I bury my face in my hands and decide to rest on the table. She can be so mortifying sometimes.
"So was it as good as you remember. Wait, you did used to have sex with Lisa when you used to date right? She was your first, right?"
"We were each other's first, yes."
"And now? Was it good, I bet it was good, Lisa seems like the type who knows what she's doing?"
I know if I don't answer her, she will pester me endlessly and knowing her, she will ask Lisa as well. Time to nip this in the bud. "It was better."
"So, tell me more. How did it happen? Where did it happen?"
"I kind of initiated it while we waited for the food to arrive." I cringe, waiting for... "That's my cousin, you get in there." Waiting for that exact reaction from Jisoo, she didn't disappoint.
"You're so weird." I say with a chuckle then I remember the embarrassing start and groan. "We were on the sofa and, oh goodness, I barely lasted two seconds."
There is a moment pause before she cracks up laughing. "Sorry, I shouldn't laugh." She says while still laughing at my mortification. "It's just, gosh, it has been a while haven't it. It happens though, how did Lisa react?"
"She was lovely, and sweet. Told me not to worry and that she's going to make it her personal mission to get my stamina up." I say the last part behind my hands again. Remembering the cheeky glint in her eyes as she knelt in front of me. We worked on it a lot over the night, and a little bit more this morning. A brief pause came when food was delivered. With Lisa answering the door with only one of those blankets with sleeves covering her, giving me a delightful eyeful of her full moon. It may not have started off great but the ending was amazing.
"By that smile on your face, you're not going to put up much of a resistance. At least this time you both don't have to sneak around. Bet that ruined your sex life a few times when you were teens."
"It definitely made it harder. Although there were some benefits to my parents being my parents, I had the house to myself a few times."
