Lisa
I've been lying in bed for the past half an hour, totally unable to sleep. What the hell happened tonight? One minute we were talking, then we were yelling at each other. Which I found was totally unfair. I never asked for that girl's number, I didn't even flirt back with her. So, blaming me was completely unfair. The part that took me completely by surprise, was her attacking me. Her delicious, luscious lips playing heatedly with my own. I couldn't help but groan as her softly curvy body pressed against me. My hands wandering familiar old paths.
I thought Christmas had come early.
Then she ran away.
Leaving me groaning into a pillow as the ache below got shut down. Any chance that I'd been building with her is surely squandered now.
Will she move out? Move back in with Jisoo? Will she even still be here in the morning or is she packing her bags as I lie here ruminating?
Maybe I should check on her?
No, I can't, Ella is asleep in there.
Just as I'm about to lose my mind, a soft knock comes from my bedroom door. A blossom of hope blooms in my chest. But what if she's just telling me that she's leaving? Surely, she wouldn't knock on my door for that.
"Jen?" I softly call out. Assuming and hoping that it's Jennie, otherwise it is a very polite burglar.
She gently opens the door and peers in, struggling to look at me.
"Are you okay?" I ask.
"I can't sleep." She answers.
"Me neither. Do you want to talk about it?"
She shakes her head. "Not really."
I don't know what to say or do next, then she crosses the room and we're making out like we were downstairs earlier.
Just like those early days as teenagers, first realising the joy of kissing.
Am I dreaming?
Did I fall asleep and imagine that Jennie came into my room?
My dreams have never been this realistic before, but I'm not going to knock it.
For a brief moment, my hand brushes the skin of her mid-drift and the spell once again shatters. She detangles from me and lays there with her hands over her face. I scrub my hand through my hair as I try to wrap my head around what went wrong. Nope, I have no clue.
"Jen, what is going on?" I ask half exacerbated.
"I don't know." She sighs, while uncovering her face. "Why did you have to be so much fitter?"
"I'm sorry?" I chuckle nervously.
"You should be. I thought that I'd gotten you out of my head years ago but then I see you and I'm like a teenager again."
"Really?" I ask softly. She still has feelings for me, is that what she's saying?
"Why couldn't you have gotten ugly and horrible?" she says with a slight whine.
Chuckling, I prop myself up to look down at her. She turns her head so we're looking at each other in the eye. A silent moment passes between us. She's so beautiful.
"You're making it very hard for me to not to fall in love with you, all over again." She whispers.
"For that I won't apologise, I've been falling in love with you all over again, since I first set my eyes on you."
"I'm not the same girl that you used to know."
"Neither am I." I argue back.
"But Lisa, you've travelled, you own your own home and you have a job that you love. You're a firefighter for Christ sake, one of the hottest professions. Pun intended. We are at such different stages in our lives."
"The way I see it, we are both in this bed right now, making this the best stage in my life."
"I have a child."
"A child that is very easy to love." I can argue every reason to love her, all night long if I have to.
"But, as a result of having Ella, my body is not what it used to be." She says even quieter than everything we've said so far.
Clarity comes crashing down. "Ah, there is the real problem. Isn't it?" Gently, I smooth a piece of hair from her face. "Jen, do you really think I'm that shallow? It's you that I fell in love with as a teenager and from what I've seen so far, it's you whom I'm falling in love with again. Your body could be purple and I'd still want to worship it, because it's yours."
"I'm just not ready to go that far." She sighs.
"And that is completely fine, just tell me that I have a chance to earn back your love."
A slow smile builds on her lips. "It's looking positive."
Woooooohooooo. I stand a chance, this is better than I could have hoped for. Nothing can contain my smile.
"I should probably get back to bed." She says suddenly sitting up, ruining my moment of euphoria.
"Or you could help me make a teenage dream come true." I say holding onto to her hand.
"What'd you mean?"
"I always hated having to say goodnight to you, I would dream of the day that we could spend the whole night together. I'm not saying that we have to do anything; I just want to sleep next to you. Maybe even cuddle a little." I sound like that nervous teen again.
After a pause that seems to stretch into minutes rather than a couple of seconds, she climbs under the covers. My heart skips a beat.
"Well, are you joining me or what?" she asks. Snuggling down further under the covers. With a smile, I cuddle up next to her.
"Goodnight." I say softly, with a smile on my face as I finally doze off.
