Journey (3)

Chapter 6

"What is wrong with me?" I sigh, resting my head on the table. "I can't believe I just did that. Are you kidding me? Why did I just do that?" 

"You have to admit, it was entertaining," April says, laughing. "I mean, it went horribly and I doubt he'll ever speak to you again, but it was impressive. I could never do that."

"Good for you," I say, sarcastically. "But I did do it. I can't believe I did that." 

"It's not exactly a huge deal," Natalie says, in an attempt to smooth over the situation. "I know it looks bad now, but maybe he'll forget about it?"

"Do you really think he's ever going to forget about that?"Maggie scoffs. "Sure, sure. He'll totally forget about the huge disaster that just unfolded in front of him."

 "You're not making me feel any better," I tell them. "In fact, I think you're probably making it worse. I genuinely just want to forget that the last five minutes ever happened."

"It's fine, really," Natalie says, reassuringly. "It will be. Just wait a while and then text him or something. Apologise and he'll be fine with it. He always is." She shares another knowing glance with Maggie. 

"Did you see his face back there?" I ask her, sighing. "He looked disgusted, like really repulsed. I don't think he'll be so fine with it this time. I think I've really blown it."

"I'm sure you haven't," April says, shaking her head. "It's just a little drunken confrontation. He can't exactly hold that against you forever, can he? He'll be fine with it." 

"What should I do?" I ask, lifting my head up finally. "I mean, I probably ruined his date, and he'll be mad at me for that, I'm sure. Not to mention everything else I said to him."

"Whatever you do, don't go and talk to him again," Natalie advises me. "That went badly enough last time. You just need to text him first, clear the air, apologise and you'll be fine. He'll forgive you, obviously."

"Why is that so obvious?" I ask her, exasperated. "I don't think he'll forgive me at all."

"Do you really need me to spell it out for you?" Natalie asks, raising an eyebrow. "I have known you for two years, Tessa, and in that time, I've seen you both do pretty fucked up things to each other, and sure, a lot of the time, one of you is pissed off at the other one, but you always end up forgiving each other. We've all seen it happen. I don't want to be the one to say this, but the two of you are so predictable."

Maggie and April nod in agreement. "This isn't the first time he's been mad at you like this," Maggie tells me. "He'll forgive you, Tessa. Just like he always does."

"I don't think so," I say, shrugging. "I get what you're saying, I do, but this is different. I saw the way he looked at me, the expression on his face. He's not planning on forgiving me any time soon."

"Really?" April asks, stifling laughter. "That's what you say every single time, and you always end up forgiving each other."

"This isn't like all of the other times," I say, shaking my head. "I really humiliated myself, and him. He didn't really seem like he wanted to forgive me."

"Text him now," Natalie says. "His date just went to the bathroom, I think. Just text him, and apologise. Don't add anything else onto it, just say you're sorry for what just happened."

"Okay," I say. "I can do that. But what if he just ignores it?" I ask, already thinking of the worst possible outcomes of sending the text.

"Just do it, and quickly!" Maggie instructs. "If you spend too much time debating whether to do it or not, his date will come back from the bathroom before you've even sent the text."