-Tate-
i can't believe i just did that. of course she didn't believe me. I mean I didn't even believe myself. I don't regret punching Callie.
how am i going to get this done. she's never going to fall for it. she's too smart for that. I have to come up with a better plan. maybe I should just keep doing the same as usual. maybe I should just be a bitch to her. then at least I can talk to her that way. I just can't get a word out of my throat when I try to be nice to Callie.
we are doing a dribbling exercise. but I can't really concentrate. my attention is only on Callie. how could I not have noticed this? I know what life is like as the daughter of a mafia boss. how could I not have seen Callie live such a life. I've seen her father before. he sometimes comes to watch our games on Friday. he seems like a normal man. nothing mafia about it. I wonder if Callie knows that her father and my father have been at war for years. I always told my parents I wanted nothing to do with it. but what if she does live that life? the life I've always kept such a distance from.
''Tate what are you doing?'' I hear coach say from the other side of the field which takes me out of my thoughts.
"Tate, if you can't focus on my training, I want you to leave. we can't use that as a team'' adds coach
I can not stand him. If I don't receive a ball well, it doesn't mean I can't focus. I can't listen to his nonsense any longer.
"fine whatever i'll go" i yell back at him
I grab my water bottle and walk towards the changing rooms.
"Tate what is wrong with you?" I hear Madison say
I didn't realize she was coming after me. I so want to tell her. i want to tell her i lied about everything. i want to tell her about my real life. and about Callie. but i can't
''can you please leave me alone'' i yell at her
I know I could have said it differently. but i just want to be alone for a while.
"sure Tate whatever," she says disappointed
I hate this. i hate my father and his stupid plan. i hate everything that has to do with it. i hate callie and the fact i have to make her fall in love with me. Suddenly I feel a wave of panic come over me. I feel like I can't breathe. I feel my heartbeat in my throat. I close my eyes but all I see is Jacob. i only see my brother.
it's my father's fault he's dead. he put him in danger. and now he has put me in danger again. it is a big risk and my father knows that. yet he leaves it to me.
I start sweating and shaking. is this what a panic attack feels like? because I'm sure I'm in total panic.
"here, drink some water"
I look up in shock to see Callie standing across from me. what is she doing here? If there's anyone I don't want to see right now, it's Callie.
"What do you want?" I ask irritated.
''Coach asked if I could get you. He wants everyone to be there when we discuss tactics for Friday''
I take the bottle of water from Callie's hand and drink some water.
"And I'm here to tell you to change your attitude, I don't care if you feel like shit today, but don't take it out on others."
wait really? Callie Grey tells me to change my attitude? what a joke.
"Maybe you should take a look at yourself before giving advice to others"
oh no, i can't believe i just said that. Saying things like that doesn't help me. But i can not help it. always when i look at her i have to say something to annoy her. it's a habit.
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Forbidden Things
Aksiyon18 year old Tate Hilton is the daughter of one of the most wanted maffia bosses in New York. When her father assigns her the task of seducing the daughter of their greatest enemy for confidential information, it seems like an impossible mission. But...