at first i thought he was just worried for me, but now.. i think he's ashamed of me.
i mean, we've been dating for what? 6 months now.. you'd think he'd at least post me on his story. i know it's a bit dramatic but like.
once the thoughts flood in, they don't stop.
every time i ask him about it, he always says the same two things.
"i don't even use social that much, and you know that"
"i don't want you to get hate" ___
"babe?" javon says causing me to snap out of my thoughts. "are you coming tomorrow?" he asked through the phone.
"uhh yea, yeah" i smile at him, he looks at me with a confused matter. i tried my hardest not to get upset about the whole posting me thing.
but who am i kidding, javon can see right through me. "what's the matter" he asks, "nothing" i shoot at him.
"y/n.." he says kind of like a warning. i sigh in defeat, "can i ask you a question?" i start.
"course" he replies with concern, "why don't you post me, & don't say that you don't want your fans to hate on me or that you don't use social media that much" i blurt.
his lips purse together as he bites the inside of his cheek. "i.." he sighs, "why do you care so much y/n?" he asks.
"i- i don't know i'm just starting to think that your like embarrassed of me or something" i say nervous of his reaction, hoping this wouldn't turn out in an argument but knowing it will.
"y/n seriously, why do you think like that?" he says with annoyance in his tone. i sigh and go to say something before, he starts to rant.
"why would you want me to post you so bad? i mean.. i'm not hiding you from anyone, & you know that i love you so why would i post about it when i'm telling you straight up that i love you?" he goes on.
"i was just asking" i say with a low tone, "no need to start an argument" i continue.
"but you're the one that started it y/n.. make it make sense" he raised his voice.
at this point i was furious that he was yelling at me like this, "well if you're making such a big deal about me asking you then you must be fucking embarrassed of me?!" i snap back.
"but i'm not?!?" he snaps, "you aren't special y/n? who do you think you are" he finished.
my mouth dropped, what the actual fuck. i took a deep breath, preparing myself.
"wow javon, major low blow talking about me like that. i was just asking a fucking question, honestly, just forget about it.. i don't feel like arguing" i snap at home before hanging up.
i can admit, i did start it & i was being a TAD bit dramatic.. but was i gonna admit it to him? never. ___
1 hour later
i had fallen asleep, but woke up to a notification from 1 hr ago.
"onwardwanna tagged you in a post"
my eyebrow raised, confused & excited. trying not getting my hopes up just in case.
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@onwardwanna: forever type thing ♥️ @y/n.y/l/n _____________________________________ liked by y/n.y/l/n, jaylawaltonoffcial and 3 mil more
@jaylawaltonofficial: My parents 🥹 ^ *liked by creator*
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@waltonfan: she's gorgeous
@waltonfan29: flop 👎👎
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i smiled at the post, but feeling guilty afterwards. my finger shifted up to the heart button, liking the post. then proceeding to comment.
not long after i received a message from the one and only.
