imagines | javon & ashtray

confess - ashtray

"i get lonely when your not here, and this darkness appears, leaving me stranded." - in this darkness, Clara La San

i sat on my window staring out of it as rain drops fell on it. my mind was going crazy, thinking about him.
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ashtray & i have been friends, kinda.. friends with benefits.. just minus all the sex. it's confusing.

we're friends in public but flirty in private, we haven't confessed feeling with each other.. well at least i haven't yet.

i know that deep down ash has feelings for me, he might not show it, but sometimes.. it's planted all over his face.

when i hang out with other boys, he gets jealous. he just, doesn't do anything because he knows we aren't together so he can't do much about it.

but we've both decided to stay friends, for the better. until tonight..

tonight i had this feeling, a feeling i've never experienced before.

my hand reached for my phone as i then continued to open ashtray & i messages.

me: are you busy

ash: nah
ash: why

me: bored i guess

ash: come over then

i closed my phone down and grabbed a hoodie, making my way to their house.

slightly knocking at the door, i then waited for it to be opened. moments after, ash revealed himself, topless.

"hey" his low voice spoke, "hi" i reply as i entered the house. "where's fez & faye?" i asked. he shrugged behind me.

"at some party" he says before walking past me into the kitchen. "want a drink?" he asks me, "uh no.. thank you" i tell him.

an awkward silence filled the room as ash took a sip from his drink, "how you been lately" he asks, making conversation.

"yeah not to bad, lonely" i explain to him, "you?" i add. "oh you know, same old shit" he says speaking about his business.

i nod at his response and let him finish his drink, "come on, let's go to my room" he says placing his glass in the sink.

he sat on his chair as i took a seat on his bed. "ash" i spoke. he lifted his head from his phone, showing me that all of his attention was fixed onto me.

"can i tell you something" i say biting my bottom lip slightly. "yeah" he responds dryly. "um so i think.. i think i have feelings for you" i manage to get out.

at first he didn't respond to me, which caused embarrassment to travel through my body. "is that why you messaged me?" is all he says.

confused, i furrow my eyebrows, i literally confessed my feelings to him and he asks if that's why i messaged him. "uhh yeah i guess" i reply to him.

"same" he speaks in a low tone. "really?" i ask, shocked that he just said that. he nods and opens his mouth to speak.

"i'm crazy over you actually" he says with a chuckle, i sat on his bed shocked. "crazy?" i ask making sure he knows what he said.

"absolutely fucking crazy" he assures me, "wow" i say.

"yeah, i guess not seeing you all the time got me wanting you even more" he explains.

butterflies invaded my stomach as i seen that he was now towered over me. "yeah i've been feeling a little lonely and shit" i confess.

i backed up on the bed, leaning on my elbows as ash came closer to me.

he then climbs over me, "i can help with that" he whispers in my ear.

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A/N: i was gonna write a make out sesh but i write to many of those that y'all might think i'm a perv ☠️