imagines | javon & ashtray

body - javon

i tried to deny it for a while, but it got to me. the thoughts, racing around my mind 24/7.

my teeth bit on the inside of my cheek, urging for the tears to stay in.

some of javons fans (NOT AIMED!! just a pov) had been saying some hurtful things about me recently.

there was just a bunch of them commenting about my weight and my thighs. usually, they don't bother me. but there was just so much flooding in.

my hands rubbed over my belly as i tried sucking it in. gasping after holding my breath for a couple moments.

all of a sudden there was a knock on the door. i immediately blinked away the glossy layer that covered my eyes.

"come in" i spoke slowly. there he was, the perfect one.

he smiled at my appearance and slithered his arms around my waist, hugging me from behind. "you're perfect" he smiled at me.

his words comforted me in a way no others could. but that comfort fled as my mind wandered back to the hate.

"thank you" i smile back, "we're having a movie night downstairs if you want to join" he placed a kiss on my cheek.

i cleared my throat, "yeah i'll be down soon" i answered him.

"cool" he smiled before exiting the bathroom. i moved into action and splashed my face with water, attempting to escape the thoughts.

touching up my hair i finished my short little episode.. for now.
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my body plopping on the L shaped couch, more distant than usual. my arms wrapped around my belly, basically hugging myself.

a confused look appeared on javons face as i wasn't basically on top of him like i usually am. "babe" he tried getting my attention.

my head turned to face his, "come" he patted a space on the couch right next to him.

my head shook slightly, letting him know i didn't want to sit there. which then caused a hurt, confused look to show on his face.

he shrugged and moved himself to sit right next to me, snaking his arm around my shoulders.

"alright who wants snacks!" jayla slightly yells as her & jaden enter the room with snacks. javon gets up to grab some popcorn as it was placed on the coffee table (is that what y'all call them?).

"meee!" daelo screams jumping up & down, i chuckle slightly at the boy as he began to shove snacks into his mouth.

"yo mumps, slow down man" jaden chuckles, i smile with comfort as i enjoyed seeing them interact with each other with so much love.

javons eyes travel to me as he seen i hadn't eaten anything yet. "you want some baby?" he ask, leaning back.

my head shook again, informing him that i wanted none. "are you sure?" he asks again.

"yeah i'm sure" i smile awkwardly. i could feel a pair of eyes on me, causing me to search for the pair.

they eventually lead to jayla, as she looked at me with confusion. i smile at her awkwardly, hoping she couldn't tell what was going on, but knowing she knew.

i sighed with defeat and excused myself so she couldn't have anymore time to try figure me out. "i'll be back, just going to toilet" i whisper in javons ear.

"okay" he nods. i quickly exit the lounge as i knew that jayla was focusing all of her attention onto me.

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A/N: pt 2?