imagines | javon & ashtray

cross my heart - javon

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the neighbourhood was dead silent, crickets making the same sound they make every other night. as i gazed at my roof, thoughts running around my mind.

to be more specific, he was on my mind.

his laugh, his smile, the dimples that revealed each time he smiled. how he never failed to light the room up, how he would always be there for you even though he had his own shit going on..

then the feeling hit me, i was finally coming to realisation that he was gone. the love of my life, was gone..

flashback:

"ready, set, go!" javon announced to me, beginning the running race we had randomly decided to do. "oh shit you're actually fast" he laughed.

a smirk appeared onto my lips, "caught you off guard huh?!" i laugh, not stopping my tracks as we were head to head.

a sharp pain reaches my lower stomach, "ah fuck!" i stop, javon kept running, making sure to finish before checking up on me. "i knew i shouldn't of eaten that fucking burrito".

"hah, i won" javon said, out of breath. "that burrito got to you huh baby?" he said as if it were a question, smiling whilst doing so.

my eyes roll at him, knowing that he was being cheeky to me. "yeah, i'll get you next time" i smiled.

his arms made their way around my waist, as i then assisted my arms around his neck. bringing our faces closer to one another.

"you're so perfect" he smiled simply, before placing a short but passionate kiss onto my lips.

a full face of blush invades my face, i attempt to hide it by putting my head down onto his chest.

his finger picks up my chin, making me look into his hazel eyes. "i love you" he says in a whisper.

"i love you more" i whispered back, placing a kiss onto his lips, "please don't leave me, you promise?" i asked, my voice still soft.

his plump lips pursing together, saddened by my question. "cross my heart" he says moving his arm to create a cross movement onto his chest.

end of flashback;

two days after, he got into a car crash. ever since then life hasn't been the same.

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a/n: sorry for this one guys, my mood swings are going crazy atm... so current mood..

emotional ✌️

what mood are you in currently?