imagines | javon & ashtray

saved - ashtray

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"the hard part always seems to last forever"

ashtray was always a cheater, there was no doubt in that.

because, what the fuck does a 17 year old drug dealer know about love? absolutely nothing.

to be honest, it was guaranteed to happen sooner or later. i just wish i knew sooner and was prepared for it.

ash pov

there was no turning back from what i did, i was in too deep.

"i'm hoping that you'll say, you're missing me the way i'm missing you, so i'll keep your number saved"

but that didn't stop me from missing her, missing her smile, her eyes, her personality, her humour, her ability to put a smile on my face no matter the weather.

still, i could never be forgotten after what happened that night.

flashback - y/n pov

my head was pounding, some guy had just tried making his move on me. but where was ashtray?

no where to be seen.

i journeyed my way throughout the house, in search for my absent boyfriend. when the interaction i had with the boy finally got to me.

i felt the anxiety make its way up my throat, causing my hand to shoot over my mouth. i was quick to find a bathroom.

as i was puking all my fears out, i could swear i felt my ears twitch at the voices in the hallway. "what don't you get gabriella, YOU are the other woman, not y/n, you."

it's was ash's voice..

"can't you just admit it.. admit that she can't make you feel the way i do, she can't be there for you in a way i can, you can't resist me ash. admit it"

by this point i was watching the whole thing, watching how her eyes looked up at his filled entirely with lust.

i watched as he pressed his body up against hers, how he kissed her with desire and need.

"it's crazy how this love thing seems unfair, you won't find a love like mine anywhere"

the anxiety immediately rushing back up my throat at the sighting. i felt like screaming, ripping my heart out.

after some short moments i had collected myself up, growing the balls to walk out of the bathroom.

the two still making out against the wall, but i didn't dare to share a look with any of them.

"oh fuck" ashtray mumbled as i walked past them in a hurry; my cheeks being stained with tears.

"y/n" he shouted slightly, but there was no way in hell i was going to answer him. the whole moment was a blur, the sight was so nauseating that it almost felt unreal.

the sight of my boyfriend being pressed up onto another, his lips dancing with another's. the betrayal was just un-fucking-real.

i was quickly snapped out of my thoughts as ash's hand came in contact with my shoulder, pulling me to face him.

ash pov

her cheeks were stained with tears, her face was blank. at that exact moment i knew that i had fucked up.

that there was no point in even trying to apologise. she was blank, her expression didn't change at the sight of my face.

"i'm sorry"

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a/n: cliffhanger??? idk tell me how y'all feel abt this one ————->

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