imagines | javon & ashtray

saved pt 2 - ashtray

ash pov

her hand landed onto my shoulder, "look ash i get that your hurt over her dumping you, but can you blame the girl?"

"i mean— you were making out with some chick who you've been sneaking around with for who knows how long, so obviously she's not going to forgive you"

lexis words hurt me, not because they were harsh, but because they were the truth. "i just— i would do anything in this whole world.."

"anything at all, for her to forgive me" i fully admitted, it was the truth.

"and eventually she will, just not now" she smiled at me weakly. i nodded and walked back into the room.
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i let the blunt leave my lips as i took another drag, exhaling the smoke. my phone that sat beside me, lit up.

a part of me wished— hoped it was y/n, but there was no way in hell it would be.

audrey the low-life

audrey: i miss us
audrey: and i know you do too
audrey: come over and we can start over again

me: but you're not her
me: you never will be.

audrey: you can't seriously be blaming me for what happened

me: who said i was?
me: i realised what i've done wrong and so should you.
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before she could reply i blocked her, for the better.

y/n pov

"these boys ain't shit, i'm not here for it, if you want me act like it, act like it" i sung along with the song as maddy did the same.

life without ashtray was dull, but it was for the better. there was no way i was going to let snakes ruin my life.

i missed him, and it was the truth. but i couldn't let my feelings allow him back into my life.

"fuck i'm outta weed, do you mind if we go to the gas station or?" maddy exclaimed, unsure if i wanted to be in the presence of ash.

"no it's alright, i'll just wait in the car"
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i could've sworn maddy said that she was going to be 5 mintues, it's been fucking 15.

an annoyed sigh left my lips as i made my way out of the car, "can't believe i'm fucking doing this"

my eyes glanced over to the bald ginger who almost look shocked at my presence. "yo
y/n/n, haven't seen you in a minute" he revealed his gap-tooth.

i missed fezco, me & him always had a good bond. he was actually the reason ash & i met.

"hey fez, i missed you" i hugged him.

"i missed you too kid, maddy in the back with ash" his thumb pointed to the freezers, i nodded and made my way over.

my hand was hesitant to grab the handle, eventually i got there. i allowed myself to open the door.

only to discover maddy arguing with the girl from that night, "you need to fucking watch yourself before you get smacked the fuck up" maddy pointed at the girl.

ash was quick to notice my company, it was like the world stopped for him. "y/n..." is all he could say.

a scoff exited my mouth aswell as a eye roll, "what the fuck are you doing here, he doesn't want you" the girl said to me.

"he doesn't want YOU either bitch, just a couple minutes ago you were all over him whilst he was telling you to fuck off" maddy chuckled.

the girl scoffed and exited, shoulder barging both of us during the process. "hi" ash said to me.

unintentionally a dirty look appeared on my face, "ok maddy got your weed? can we go?" i said to her.

"yeppp" she smiled, now excited that she got her weed.

"wait y/n—" ashtray grabbed onto my arm, stopping me in my tracks. "can we talk.... please" he said softly.

my eyes flickered between him and maddy, debating wether or not i should let him explain. "sure, do you mind?" i asked maddy.

"what— oh, no, i'll just be talking with fez" she smiled. i thanked the brunette girl and faced towards ashtray.

there was an awkward silence that lingered throughout the room, "i miss us— i miss you y/n" ashtray said almost in a whisper.

kinda as if he was embarrassed to admit it. "and i just want you to know that i'm sorry, extremely fucking sorry" he took a deep breath.

"i was stupid to mess up what we had, so, fucking stupid. but now, now i've realised that there is no turning back from what i did. so i know that there's no point in trying to win you back, but i still want you to know that my love for you will never fade and that i'm sorry"

his words cut deep, those words were all i wanted to hear these past 4 months. i hadn't realise how hard his words were until i felt the feeling of tears, staining my cheeks again.

his hand caressed my cheek, wiping a tear with his thumb. for once his face wasn't dull or bored or empty.

it was filled with sadness, emotions. "i love you y/n y/ln, to the fucking moon and back" he chuckles at his cheesiness.

but i was quick to shut him up, smashing my lips against his.

"and i love you ashtray o'neill"

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a/n: hell no, what kinda part 2 is this. i cbf re-writing sorry my loves but i hope you like this.