imagines | javon & ashtray

talk - ashtray

my hand lightly knocked on my bestfriends door, attempting it to be loud enough for him to head over his music.

no response, "ash!" i shout. his music lowered slightly as the door then opened.

"what are you doing here?" he asks annoyed, "just checking on my favourite" i smile at him. "nows not the time y/n" he attempts to slam the door on me.

before he could, i quickly acted and put my foot in between the door. "ow" i grunt as the door came in contact with my foot.

"what's up your ass?" i sass him, "you are!" he shouts all of a sudden. "don't yell at me" i snap at him.

my hand opened the door as my other lightly pushed him by the chest. "what's wrong ash" i pick at him closing the door behind me.

i could tell he needed to talk, he would never admit it but it's the truth. he's always bottling his feelings up until he finally breaks.

"i seriously don't wanna talk about it y/n" he explains. "but you're going to, coz i know what your like and i don't want you to be like that.. i'm head to listen ash so talk" i snap at him once again.

he sighs with defeat laced through it. "fine!" he sighs.

"it's just, this new bitch is moving in & it's fucking uncomfortable.. and there's something else but that's not as much of a deal" he rants.

"you know changes are good ash, you don't know her.. get to know her maybe" i insist to him.

he shrugs with a maybe. "what else is going on in ur mind" i smile at him before sitting next to him on the bed.

"uhh nothing" he sighs. "well what about that other thing you didn't wanna talk about?" i question.

red appeared on his face, showing me that he was embarrassed. "what?" i snicker at him. "nothing, it's best if you didn't know" he applied.

"whatever you say, as long as it doesn't bother you" i shrug. "well i better get going" i get up, along with him.

my body comes in contact with him as we hug. "bye ash, i'll see you tomorrow" i pull out of the hug.

his head nods up & down, awkwardly. "ash.. what is it" i sigh, knowing he wants to get it off his chest.

"what's holding you back" i chuckle. he groans, urging to spill but threatened not to.

"another reason i was mad is.. because i have feelings for you but, i didn't know how to tell you" he says.

my mouth opens to say something, before i could be interrupted.

"but that's fine if you don't feel the same way, this is also why i didn't want to tell you because we already have such a great relationship" he blurts

my body felt frozen, shocked at the fact that he just admitted his feelings. but also feeling the same way for him.

"ash i.." i go to start, too nervous to finish the sentence. he sighs at my words and looks to the ground.

"just go" he spits, feeling embarrassed. "no ash-" i start again. "just! leave y/n.. this was all a mistake" he looks at me with a harsh stare.

his hand guided to my back, assisting me out the door. "bye y/n" he says. "ash wh-" i go to say before being interrupted again.

the door slammed in my face. "FUCK!" i yell frustrated.

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A/N: writing a pt 2 rn ✌️😗