imagines | javon & ashtray

all i wanted - javon

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"i should've known it was him" javon said, his tone was low. "this whole time.. it was him, never me" he continued.

shocked, i stood in the middle of his room as he sat on the edge of his bed, "how can you say that javon?" i said almost in a whisper.

"how can you say it was always him, when all i wanted was you! it was always you,and you should know that!" i raised my voice slightly.

"stop acting innocent y/n! i know how you feel for my brother, i know that you only became friends with me to get closer to him!" he shouted.

unintentionally a loud scoff came from me, "wow, fucking unbelievable you are" my head shook.

"all i wanted was you"

"get out" he mumbled, which i did as told without the hesitation. "fuckk!" i heard a frustrated yell come from him as i left.

"all i wanted was you"

before i could walk through the front door a hand grabbed onto me, jadens hand to be exact.

jaden walton. i liked him for a short time during freshman year, but then i became friends with his twin javon.

from then i've had feelings for javon ever since, the both of them didn't know until last year in sophomore year.

when i accidentally blurted it out to jaden, which he was fully understanding and supportive of.

he admitted to liking me in freshman year also, but we had decided to stay friends. soon enough javon found out but we explained to him.

i guess his overthinking got the most of him because he still thinks i have a crush on jaden, and that i use him to get closer to jaden.

fucking stupid boy javon is.

"what jaden" i mumbled, his hand stayed on my wrist.

"i'll talk to him" he softly said, "but you need to show him that you want him, and only him. you need to prove to him that your not using him for me" jadens voice refused to get louder.

"what do you think i do jaden, all i do is for him! he's just to fucking blind to see that!" i raised my voice, quickly snatching my hand from his.

"goodbye jaden" i said to him before storming out of their house.
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2 weeks after

wannaaa: hey
wannaaa: can we talk?

me: i think it's best we don't

wannaaa: please y/n
wannaaa: i need to apologise.
wannaaa: i was too blinded by jealousy, hurt ,and hate.
wannaaa: please let me apologise to u

me: the front door is unlocked

wannaaa: thank you
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"hey" javon announced himself in my room, causing my head to turn from my tv to him. i turned my tv off, focusing all my attention to him.

a smile is all i replied with, feeling slightly sorry for myself. i moved to lean against my head board as javon sat on the edge of my bed.

"forgive me please, i can't stand knowing that your mad at me" he said, "i don't know nor understand why i acted the way i did. but i was so uncool of me" he admitted.

"all i want is you javon, all i do is for you." i confessed, my fingers fiddled with eachother.

"i know, and i appreciate that.. so much" his hand fell onto my knee. "i just think—" he paused almost as if he choked on the words he was about to say.

"i think we should go our separate ways and leave each other alone" he blurted. my eyes immediately looking up at him with confusion.

"all i wanted was you!"

he sensed my confused emotion and refused to look me in the eyes. "what?" i spat.

"there's too much drama in our friendship" he said.

"wait no— so you're telling me that, you only came because you wanted yourself to feel better knowing you apologised— how fucking selfish are you?!"

his hand was removed from my knee at an instant. "get the fuck out javon" i demanded, he did as said and left.

"don't ever come back, don't ever reach out to me, don't ever, ever, play me around like that ever again or you won't hear the fucking end of it" i spat as he walked down the stairs.

i was shocked at his actions.

how could such a loving person do such a selfish thing.

how?

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