imagines | javon & ashtray

high - ashtray

flashback

"wdym stop doing drugs?! i'm literally a drug dealer!" ash shouted at me.

he had been smoking a lot more pot then usual, and it concerned me. so being the motherly girlfriend i am.

i told him to quit the drugs.. yes it was stupid. 'you cant just tell a drug dealer to stop doing drugs'

yeah well now i know.

"i was just insisting it, i can't help it if i'm worried for my boyfriend" i snapped back at him.

"gosh y/n are you high?" he questioned me. "no but you are, i can see it in your eyes!" i answered.

"..GET OUT! just get the fuck out!" he finally snapped. i jumped at his words, but continuing to stand my ground.

"fuck you bro.. don't come running to me when your life gets fucked over" i chuckled at him, hiding the tears that threatened to fall.

i then stormed out of the house, walking back to mine.
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ash pov

it had been weeks, maybe even months, since i've seen y/n. i missed her a lot, and i regretted everything that went down that day.

i mean, all she was really trying to do was look out for me, and i guess i took it the wrong way.

anyway, i sat on a couch at a random party smoking my 5th blunt of the night. not much but, enough to get me in a fucked state.

my throat felt as dry as the sahara desert, aching for a drink. i picked my self up off of the couch, but struggling to do so.

a part of me hoped y/n showed up to the party tonight, i wanted to apologise. but i knew, she would never forgive me after i yelled at her like i did.

as i stumbled my way over to the kitchen, in search for a drink. i bumped into at least 10 people.

my head tilted back, taking in beer that was held in a red cup. i groaned at the sharp pain.

my eyes wandered around, discovering a person who looked quite familiar in my eyes.

"y/n?" i slurred. "no, your not real" i shook my head. i allowed my eyes to blink a couple times, in hopes the figure would disappear.

to my luck, it did. i didn't want y/n to see the state i was in, not now, not ever.

but i couldn't handle it anymore, i rushed outside. my plan was to walk to y/ns house. but who am i kidding? i could barely even make it out of the house.

eventually i gave up, slumping down on a curb. i sniffled as my finger hovered over her contact.

"my sexy girl"

my eye's observed over the contact name, chuckling as it brought me back to a memory.

the memory, y/n had scowled at me for the name i originally had her as. "y/n with a red heart? no give me that phone" she snatched my phone.

her smile appeared on her face, her perfect fucking smile. "better" she handed me the phone.

i read the new contact name that read, 'my sexy girl'.

anyways, my finger lowered itself, pressing the notification. i brung the phone up to my ear weakly.

"hello?"

i stayed silent.

"ash?"
"hey"
"what do you want" she says sternly.
"i need you ma" i said, crying at this point.

she stayed silent, but her breaths became louder.

"i'm sorry ash.." she spoke weakly

a beep came from my phone as she hung up on me. "fuccckkk!" i shouted.

my teeth bit at my bottom lip, as tears flowed down my cheek like a river.

i was at rock bottom..

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A/N: another dramatic one for y'all ✌️ dw pt 2 coming tmro.. or should i just leave it as it is...