Anurakti

11: Sleep

"I can drop you!"
Sahaj yelled running after her and Samidha snorted.

"You really think I trust you enough to get on a bike with you. Who knows you'll throw me off a cliff?"

"I have a car right now."

"So you'll keep me in the trunk of your car?"
She asked looking at him through the side of her eyes as they were walking together. And she once again felt the pain she's been feeling since she hit puberty.

WHY THE HELL WAS SHE SO SHORT?!

"You don't plan on doing any of that?"
She asked when she found Sahaj giving her a deadpan look.

"I said I can drop you, and you are here making weird scenarios of how I would torture you. Are you even sane?"
He asked, narrowing his eyes and looking at her in almost disgust.

Samidha laughed.

"Yes I am, and that is why I'm making these scenarios. Just go back in time and try to remember if you've done a single thing for me to not make these scenarios. Can you?"
She asked, looking at him softly and giving him a gentle smile.

Sahaj couldn't help his heart getting a little hurt by her words. Not much, just a little.

"Why should I care what others think about me."
He bit back, not really liking the feeling her words gave him.

"You shouldn't. But in my opinion, you should never sow a seed of distrust or fear in anyone's heart. These are some real genuine feelings, and believe me, other people's genuine feelings about you, do affect you in a way or other. You know.......vibes."
She spoke wrapping her hands around herself and stopping.

Sahaj who was looking at her all the while and quietly listening, turned towards her, causing her to do the same.

"Genuine feelings?"
He asked and she nodded.

"So what if someone is genuinely jealous of me? If he wants me to lose everything, will I?"
He asked, almost in the mood of debate.

Samidha couldn't understand why he was getting so aggravated?

"Jealousy is not a feeling directed towards you. If you have something and I am jealous of you, it means I'm angry and disappointed in myself that I couldn't do it but you could. So according to me, it is just guilt, anger and hatred towards oneself only, not the other person. Just the disappointment of not being able to achieve the achievable."
She explained, and Sahaj let her explain like he was some kid.

"That's bullshit."
He snarled and Samidha snorted.

"Didn't expect anything else from you. Anyways, thanks for listening to me like a normal person. Byeee. Have a great day!"
She smiled, waving at him and Sahaj held her wrist.

"I said I'll drop you."
He ordered and Samidha freed her wrist.

"And I said I'll go by my-"

"I said I'll drop you dammit! Why is it so hard for you to come with me? I don't bite!"
He yelled, stepping closer and towering her.

Samidha looked around, people gave them looks and upon getting her glare, pretended they didn't.

She sighed.

"Okay. Lead the way."

Sahaj flared his nostrils but decided it was better to calm down.

His car was on the opposite side of the road. Samidha walked behind him and almost melted looking at his white BMW car.

"I love this car."
She whispered and opened the door to sit in the back seat.

"What am I? Your fucking driver?"