You're Losing Me (Lost Hearts Duology #1) | ✓

Epilogue

Ceila's POV

I was tapping my shoes on the tailed floor. Feeling conscious and nervous.

"Hey, are you okay lang?" Parisa asked while checking on me.

I just gave her an assuring smiled before nodding.

Kinakabahan ako. Paano kung hindi pumayag ang company?

Handa na ba ang puso at isipan ko para iwan ulit si Lei para sa mga pangarap ko?

Mabigat akong napabuntong hininga.

"Are still doubting your decisions Ceila? You know, you can choose your heart and stay with Lei. Ceila, Lei loves you so much and are you sure of the idea leaving him?" Parisa asked.

Hindi ako makasagot. Nalilito na ako. I feel frustrated and conflicted, as I'd be torn between my lover and my desire to chase my dreams.

"Attention all passengers, this is the final boarding call for flight 4561 to Las Vegas. Please proceed to gate 3 at this time. We kindly ask that passengers who have not yet boarded make their way to the gate immediately."

"Looks like your decision is final." Parisa said before standing up and looked at me.

"Let's go, Ceila. Out flight is already boarding."

I pressed my lips. Is this the right decision? Did I think of this through properly? What if this leads to a lifetime regret?

I sigh before standing up. "Let's go."

We were boarding at gate 3 when Parisa spoke.

"You know Ceila, your heart will always be a slave to your mind. You know you can pursue your dreams while being with Lei but you choose to leave him just because Las Vegas holds your big dreams. You've always been a people pleaser a pushover to everyone but you don't realize that you're also a pleaser to yourself. From the beginning you know what to choose but you again, neglected your heart... can you just.... for once listen to your heart?" she said with annoyance in her voice.

"What does your heart says at this moment? Is it to go to Las Vegas.... or choose to stay with Lei?" she asked.

Napatingin ako kay Parisa. Then she nodded at me, smiling as if she can read my mind. She does know.

"Go," she mumbled.

Ginantihan ko siya ng ngiti bago lumabas ng gate.

If Lei can sacrifice anything for me..... who am I to not sacrifice anything for him? If he can drop anything in a heartbeat just for me... then I would gladly do the same.

Because love is to sacrifice.

I realize now that my heart needs him, and that I was wrong in letting my dreams take precedence. I just hope it's not too late for both of us.

As I walked through the crowded airport terminal, I saw him there, in a distance.

Lei Andrique Del Fuego. Standing tall and pride with his head held high and a look of confidence on his face.

His stature was striking, with his broad shoulders, piercing black eyes, and commanding presence, while his face was impressive, with its strong features and proud expression.

Mabilis ko siyang tinakbo... he opened his arms and I throwed myself towards his embrace. Mahigpit na sinalubong ng yakap.

Ramdam ko ang pagmamahal, pag-asa, at ginhawa sa kanyang mga bisig. Na sa pagkakataong ito..... siya ang pinili ko..... si Lei ang pipiliin ko.

Saglit akong pumikit para damhin ang yakap niya. At nang dumilat kumalas ako ng yakap bago hinawakan ang mukha niya.

I stood before him, my heart beating wildly. I've had made my decision-

"I choose to stay...I choose you."

The certainty in my mind was met by a feeling of relief. As if a weight had been lifted. Dreams would always be there, waiting for me to pursue them. But for now, I know where my heart belonged in the first place.

I turned to him, eyes filled with love and certainty. With one voice, I spoke.

"It's a yes Lei! I'll be your girlfriend, fiancee, wife, and mother of your children." I said feeling a deep sense of happiness and fulfillment. Eagerly anticipated spending the rest of my life with him.... to the man I loved.

A partner who I can depend on. Someone to come home to, someone to be by my side, and someone to share my life with.

Lei Andrique Del Fuego.

Nanlaki ang mata niya sa gulat at pagkabigla. Tila

"Pwede na kitang pakasalan?" he asked and I nooded in response.

"Tangina, papakasalan na kita!" he said and pressed his lips against mine. As if he won a lottery.

And for a moment of eternity, a life that I have onced dreamed flashed on my mind. Simple at masayang buhay kasama siya. Magkakaanak... magkaroon ng sariling pamilya kasama ang isa't isa.

All this years, I thought I was losing myself in the midst of life's chaos.

But today, I realized.... it was him I am losing. That my life was right in front of me... it was my decision to choose. The answers to my prayers was right here... embracing.... holding..... and loving me more than myself.

I was blind to see that. I was too blind to even understand myself that I loved him so much... beyond comprehension, more than any amount I could ever describe.

My love for him was the strongest thing in my heart at that moment. It was stronger than any dream I could possibly have. The weight of realization was so heavy, because it was the weight of love.

I realized that, even if I didn't understand the meaning of life, the love I felt for him made everything in my life. I also realized that I was blindly chasing my dreams, without knowing what I wanted. But now that I know him, I realized who I want to spend my eternity life for - it's him.

"Mahal kita, Ceila. Papakasalan at ihaharap kita sa altar." he held my face while planting kisses all over it.

Napangiti ako.

"Mahal din kita, Lei. Mamahalin at pipiliin kita hanggang sa huling hininga ko." masayang saad ko.

It was a promise... for a lifetime.

He was my safe place.. my lover... my home, and with him, I felt safe and complete.

He was the missing puzzle piece to my life. As I wandered blindly in darkness, he brought me light and a sense of purpose.

In the midst of losing myself, he found the path that led him to me. Then... I was found.

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