You're Losing Me (Lost Hearts Duology #1) | ✓

Chapter 18

Ciela's POV

"Malapit na ang final midterm exam!" reklamo ni Freia.

"Hindi na din magtatagal maghihiwalay na tayo." tila parang naiiyak na sabi ni Gwy.

"Mamimiss ko kayo." sabi ko sa kanila.

I stared at them as they talk to each other.

Then realization hit me..

All my life, I've trapped myself into a toxic friendship. Dahilan para hindi ako makaalis sa comfort zone ko dahil they were stopping me from doing so.

I've manipulated my mind to thinking that I can't leave my past friends behind because we had years of friendship and I can't waste it. Like I owe them some that's why I can't leave them.

Pero sa totoo niyan people change. Hanggang sa unti unti na silang nakakasama para sa'yo. Understanding and tolerating them won't help them grow from their mistakes.

So just save yourself by leaving the friend group. It was never selfish.

Kasi pinili ko ang aking sarili. They were so toxic for holding me back from opportunities and leaving me left out.

Then I found another set of people. People who help me learn to get out of my comfort zone. Help me grow and put myself out there and accept opportunities.

Making me feel included and seen. When the world realized I was going through the wrong path with the wrong people He gave me them.

New people I've encountered in this life time that gave me lessons and realizations.

Something that I never experienced from my past friends.

Without them, I am not where I am right now. They pushed me risking things that are worth the risk.

Sometimes we need people who can push us to be able to build ourselves until we can do it on our own.

The only friends I need.

It's funny how the least expected people turned out to be my friends. Something inside me just want to stay here but of course I need to leave.

Leaving them doesn't mean forgetting all our memories. It just simply means we are growing on our own paths.

Following our dreams independently.

"Ciela pupunta kami sa mall mamaya, sama ka?" pagyaya sa akin ni Gwy.

"Yup!"

"Sama mo na din si Lei!" sigaw ni Ian na may kasamang makahulugang tingin.

"Yiiieeee nagblublush oh! kilig yarn?!"

"Totoo bang kayo na?" chismis ni Clarisse.

"Yeah, she's already mine. Taken na siya." biglaang sulpot ni Lei sa tabi ko sabay akbay sa akin.

Bahagyang namula ang pisnge ko sa biglaang anunsyo niya.

I have no plans of keeping our relationship but it just felt overwhelming. He's my first boyfriend.

Halos lahat ng kaklase namin nakatingin sa amin. May ibang nakangisi at may iba namang tumataray.

Sorry kayo girls, akin na siya.

"Sanaol kasi."

"Tayo nalang kaya Gwy!"

"Pakyu ka!"

"Taray, karaklang na 'to!"

"Sarapan mo Aizie!"

"Hoy mageend na school year, yung isa dyan please gumamit na ng tawas! Nanampal putok mo sis!"