Lover

Kabatana 44

A/N: Hello to my spoiled babies! I hope everyone is doing well. I hope things will work out for everyone of us. I want this story to be your safe haven whenever you want to escape from your reality. I hope Ruelle and Rev is giving you guys utmost comfort and happiness. My heart is full knowing everyone of you come to appreciate my lovely babies. Take care! x

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Reverence Deil

I immediately jolted in my sleep knowing I could be somewhere unknown. What the fuck I was thinking last night?

I decided to be drunk like a loser. As if she would care and nurse my broken heart. I was too cocky before that once I got here everything will be back to normal. Ichi being part of my life as my partner.

And I guess I didn't see that coming. I thought I had the same intensity and effect on her. I guessed wrong. Seeing her so domesticated with Red took my remaining balance in life.

She used to smile at me like that. She used to give me the utmost importance and attention. It's always me before anything else.

Did it hurt seeing how much she grew without me? Yes. It does hurt. Like, taking my heart out of my chest and squeezing it right into my face.

I can still hear the tenderness and love in her voice when she called Red, love. How everything around them disappeared when they are together. How she managed to forget that I am around her just because Red asked her what would be the dinner.

I used to asked that. I was the one doing that. 5 years ago. I was everything Red is, right now.

Parang gusto ko magreklamo at angkinin siya pero kinagat ko ang dila ko at nagpigil dahil wala akong karapatan. Ruelle was everything. Hindi siya nagkulang. Walang mali sa naging relasyon namin. She treated me better and I bet no one could come close to what she did or what she is in general. It was my fault.

I am the one who ruined what we had. And she remained understanding when I gave her a crappy treatment in the first year of our relationship. I never experienced overthinking and jealousy. She provided me constant assurance and security. Even though she is busy. She never change. How she managed to send flowers every morning. When I mean, every damn morning.

Walang kahit anong special? She got me something. Lalo na kung may special occasion. Especially when it's monthsary or anniversary. Birthday, she loves cooking and preparing my birthday. Even though she is not very much pleased whenever we will celebrate hers.

Dates, Dinners, Lunches, and Breakfasts.

I would get the best meals. That's how spoiled I was in our relationship.

But I thought I didn't deserve that so I tried to push her away from the beginning. She stayed. She taught me love in its sincerest and purest form.

And I believed in love after knowing her love. But I have a lot of plans even before she came to my life. I got overwhelmed that's why I decided to take an easy way out.

When I heard Ace was part of the Faculty of Harvard, I got excited. He was the first person I adored. Out of my curiosity, I decided to take that path that will connect our worlds again; crumbling the castle that was built for me, for us.

I know to myself that I am at fault.

I didn't cheat. There's no alternative motives of going after Harvard. It was just that I wasn't ready to settle down. I wasn't ready to go talk about being domesticated.

But I hoped I talked about it. I hoped I communicated my concerns. Maybe, we are married now. Maybe, I was still the person she wakes up to.

I was still everything for her.