Loving Bestfriend

Chapter 3

Nakasimangot lamang ako na nakikinig sa kanilang magkwentuhan sa likod ng sasakyan. I sat in front dahil siksikan na sila doon kasama kasi namin pati dito yung babae. Damn! Nakakainis!

"This is gonna be a good day again! I'm sure marami na namang college girls doon! I'm gonna get one." Excited at mayabang na pahayag ni Kik. I groaned and rolled my eyes out of annoyance.

"Yeah, you are possibly gonna get one today cause I'm already taken. Wala kang kaagaw sa mga babae." Rinig kong wika ni Yohan. I grimaced. Damn cocky! Edi siya na ang madaming girls! Kainis talaga! Nanatili akong tahimik at hindi lumilingon sa kanila.

Nang makarating kami doon ay napipilitang bumaba pa ako at payuhan si Manong na balikan nalang ako mamaya. I already texted Mommy and she was okay with it. It's one thing I like about Mom, kapag kasama ko ang barkada ay okay lang sakanya. She's cool like that but not today. I sighed na tumayo lamang sa harap ng Hideout, that's what they call the place. Sounds cool and creepy at the same time.

"Ven, tara na!" Narinig kong tawag sa akin ni Leo from the door. He's waiting for me kaya naman ay naglakad na din ako palapit sa kanya. When we got in, nakita ko agad sila na nakapwesto na sa isang billiard table getting ready to play pool. I huffed, if only I thought of a good alibi I wouldn't have to endure this nasty place!

I looked around the place and saw college girls and boys hanging out at the other pool table. Kami lang ata ang highschool students dito. I looked back at the couch for our table and rolled my eyes when I saw the two 'lovebirds' building a nest! Saan ako uupo? Beside them? No freaking way! Gosh talaga, so napilitan akong umupo sa high chair sa may bar area. They serve food and drinks here but nothing with alcohol. Bawal eh in order to keep this place neat and iwas gulo na din daw sabi ni Jobs.

Lumapit sa akin si Kik na may akbay na babae. She must be in college na 'cause she looks old. Tinignan ko lang sila fighting the urge to raise a brow. He did get a girl today and fast, huh? Without Yohan as his karibal nakakuha talaga siya.

"Ven, why are you here alone? Don't you wanna play?" Tanong sa akin ni Kik while grinning like a maniac...acting cool in front of this girl.
I ignored him and faced the pool table where Jobs and Leo are playing. Pero instead na sa game ako magfocus ay nakikita ko sina Yohan at yung girl na naglalandian sa couch at the other side of the pool table just in front of me. I made face nang makita ko kung paano nagngingitian ang dalawa na parang tanga while talking about nonsensical things then magkikilitian...like dafuq is wrong with these morons?

I'm aware that I'm already glaring at the two and I don't like what I'm feeling right now. I feel like wanting to drag that girl's hair and ilayo silang dalawa sa isa't isa. Damn it! What's wrong with me? That girl pisses me off big time! I sighed and then tumalikod na ulit to face the bar area. I propped one elbow on top of the wooden bar to support my face with my hand.

"Kuya Mar, tell me something I don't know." Bigla nalang wika ko sa nagbabantay doon sa bar. I know him, he's actually nice and friendly. Siya din kasi ang madalas na kausap ko whenever I feel bored na sa paghihintay sa kanilang magsawa sa paglaro.

"Bored ka na naman dyan. Bakit kasi hindi ka maglaro?" Natatawang sagot niya.

"Eh kasi naman kuya, hindi naman ako marunong..."and masakit kaya! I told him.

"Hindi ka pa din marunong kasi hindi ka naman naglalaro ng matagal ang bilis mong sumuko." Sabi ulit niya. Napanguso ako. Eh masakit nga sa kamay, anong magagawa ko?!

"Kuya, sige na. Entertain me!" Nakangusong pakiusap ko sa kanya. This boredom is really getting to me! Everything's getting to me!

"Entertain? Nako! Wala akong talent!" Napapakamot na sagot ni Kuya Mar. Napasimangot lalo ako sa sinabi niya.

"Ano ba yan! Oh well, just talk to me then." Yun lang at nagkukwentuhan na nga kami. Okay na sana when he laughed and started yelling 'wooah' while looking passed me.

"Wooah! Intense!" Sigaw pa niya na sinundan na din ng cheers nung iba. I turned and my eyeballs almost popped out sa nakita. What the fuck?! Si Yohan at yung 'girlfriend' niya making out sa couch. I can see him grinning over hearing the people cheer for them.

"Iba talaga si Yohan." Nakita kong umiiling-iling ngunit nakangiti si Kuya Mar nang sabihin yan.

"Is that allowed here?" I was expecting for him to say no but was disappointed when he just shrugged meaning walang rule na nagbabawal. Gosh! Can this place get any worse?!

Now I really really really wanna pull that girl's hair! I inhaled trying to control myself. I'm still looking at them na hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa din naghihiwalay ang lips. I looked sharply kina Jobs at Leo na patuloy pa din sa paglalaro like they are not even affected with the live show going on in front of them. Tumatawa pa sila kapag napapatingin sa dalawa. I also looked at Kik na never talaga maasahan cause he's busy talking to those ladies bragging pa na Yohan's his friend.

I got up. I've had enough!

Punyeta!

I'm going home na.

"Oh saan ka pupunta?" Nagtatakang tanong sa akin ni Kuya Mar nang makita ang padabog kong pagtayo. I ignored him and started walking to the door. No one noticed me and tried to stop me. Buti naman cause I'm so pissed I can go bratatatatat on them!

Hindi ko na tinext ang driver and just rode a taxi. Nang nasa taxi ay panay ring ng phone ko. I glanced at it and lahat sila ay tumatawag na even Yohan. So, tapos na pala silang maglampungan nung babae niya. Whatever!

Tinext ko nalang si Jobs to explain na I went home cause I'm not feeling well na and hindi na ako nagpaalam kasi busy silang lahat. Si Yohan ang nagreply sa akin saying na I still should have told them kasi they'll never be busy for me. I replied that it was okay na.

Aaminin ko, what he said was sweet na feeling ko may invisible force na kumikiliti sa bawat sulok ng body ko pati sa internal organs ko but whenever I think of the scene earlier ay nawawala iyon at bigla nalang kumukulo ang dugo ko.

Why am I feeling this way?

I have always been jealous of the girls he flirts with but that's because I feel like they're taking my best friend away from me...Ganito na ako kahit noon pa man.

Alright, fine! Oo na! I'm gonna stop lying na.

Gusto ko ako yung nilalandi niya. Gusto ko ako yung kahalikan niya.

Napapikit ako sa mga gusto ko dahil alam ko ang ibig sabihin noon.

I like my best friend...

I liked him ever since and I just had the courage to admit it now.

What's the best thing to do? He is my best friend! This is so hard!

Ilang taon kong pilit na itinanggi sa sarili ko ang nararamdam ko sakanya dahil dito. I don't wanna think of what to do. Am I to tell him? Parang hindi ko kaya. I don't even wanna think of the possibilities of what's about to happen once he finds out. Iniisip ko palang na malalaman niyang gusto ko siya ay nanlalamig na ang tiyan ko. Kaya mas pinili kong magpanggap, maging kaibigan na lamang. Kaya ko yun. I like him as a man and love him as my bestfriend. Ganoon din siya, sinabi niyang mahal niya ako bilang kaibigan. I am okay with that as long as he loves me.