Orgasm
Saturday
Me: "Nakatulog ako kagabi. Nalobat ang phone. Kakabukas ko lang. Anyway, goodmorning :)" (Truth)
Kumag: "Haha. Dami reasons. Joke. Kakagising ko lang. Good morning kumag. ;)"
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EJ called. He told me about the errands he will do for today. And I thought to myself, 'Kala ko ba magkikita tayo' but did not dare to tell it to him out loud. He said he was on his way to Infant Jesus School, where Elvie is studying. And later, he said he's going to visit his Lola who was according to him confined in a hospital. Ha. Sino ngayon ang busy saming dalawa? -_-
EJ: "Excited na ako pumasok. Next week na yung start ng klase :)"
Me: "Naeexcite rin ako para sayo. It's a new world~" (Half truth)
EJ: "Pauwi na ko. Nakakatakot yung adviser ni elvie. Mukang strikta XD
Naisip tuloy kita. Hahaha."
Me: "Mukha ba kong nakakatakot?"
EJ: "The opposite actually, parang ambaet mo sa mga bata."
Me: "Yeah. Kaya. At ease ang bata sakin. So its both a good and bad thing." (Truth)
EJ: "Ang gastos ng luho ko hahaha. Dumaan ako puregold. Bumili ako ng mga gusto kong bilhin para di ako magugutom sa bahay. Inabot ng 1k XD"
Me: "Ingat. Magkikita ba tau? Baka umidlip muna ako." (Truth)
EJ: "Mga 5pm kita tayo pot? Sige. Pwede mo ko samahan kela lola? Dalaw tayo sama kita
Me: "Sige san? San ba yun?"
EJ: "Kaso lamuan yun. Malapit sa landbank na pinuntahan mo dati. Kung ayaw mo. Baka punta na lang ako dun ngayong lunch time. Mmayang 5pm kita na lang tayo sa mega."
Me: "Yung sa st. Vincent? Ba yun? Hindi naman sa ayaw ko. Pero Maglalaba ko pagkagising eh. Tsaka wala pa kong energy kaya matutulog muna ako." (Half truth - ayoko talagang pumunta kasi malayo and this was my original plan but my day totally didn't go this way.)
EJ: "Osige. Ganun na lang :)
Kita na lang tayo sa mega~ libre na lang kita mister donut."
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Seriously, all I did was record my voice in my Iphone while singing incorrectly the lyrics of songs. I discovered recordings from Teacher Darius which were copied from his Iphone. I listened and some recordings were from his friend named Carl Trazo. And when I hear the records, how I envy those people who were blessed with golden voices.
It's hot inside my room which was filled with music and my body was really asking for sexual pleasure. I was alone so I could walk naked around the house. And I... for the longest time, tried masturbating again. Using my own fingers, moving it back and forth my genitals so I could enjoy myself. Wishing that it's actually someone's tongue or penis inside of me. EJ's. Thinking of him making me feel loved, beautiful and wanted. But I was alone. Having sex with my own bed. Hoping that finally, my period would come. But instead, I reached my orgasm and noticed that I produced a lot of white liquid mixed with my pee. Sometimes, I think I'm a pervert or sex maniac. But, right now... I think I feel the lust as it's a symptom of my upcoming menstruation. And I want to get over with it. Because seriously, I hate this feeling. Is this normal? Does everybody feel this way?
I finally stopped myself from my own madness. I skipped breakfast and lunch because of my uncontrollable crave. I tried to divert my attention to something else.
