Pensiveness and Blue Devils
Monday
I wonder if he'll take care of me as how mom takes care of me when I'm sick. Nowadays, I always wonder if this what I'm feeling with EJ was also how Pau felt about Geo. Ganito ba talaga mga lalaki? Parang mga batang alagain? Gusto ko rin namang maramdamang inaalagaan...
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"I saw your boyfriend sa intersection malapit sa Sinugba restaurant around 5:45PM - 6PM. I think ikaw ang kausap niya kasi patingin tingin siya sa paligid at palipat lipat ng pwesto. Then when he saw me, bigla siyang lumakad papunta sa direksyon kung saan kayo nakatira. Btw, I was there buying food. Just sharing. "
Speaking of Geo, I received yet another message from him. I thought at first, he's talking about seeing EJ. But I realized it's not possible because I know he's not yet here in the Philippines. I confirmed when I received a follow-up message completing his story, spicing up with a distant stolen shot of 'Pau's boyfriend'.
"Para bang may hinihintay. I just find it weird bakit siya naghihintay sa lugar na yun. anyway, again just sharing. Yan message ko kay Pau kahapon. Nakita ko lang kahapon to. pakirelay sa kanya kasi parang hindi na niya mababasa to. Salamats! Please don't see this as a way to ruin what they have, I'm just concerned. Thank you."
If I may add, Geo changed his display picture showing a blunt middle finger. Nagmumurang pakyu. And guess what? Gusto ko yung ibalik sa kanya. When I received these messages, I wanted to tell him,
"Tang ina Geo, I have my own issues that you know nothing about. So I don't give a damn about yours anymore. Stop chasing their ghosts for f*ck's sake."
Pero hindi ako nagreply sa kanya. I should understand what he's going through right now. Hindi ko kelangang makipag-away. Mas okay na isipin niyang na seenzoned lang siya.
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I swear. Tomorrow. I'll be back in my Universe. I miss my world.
