Psychosis and Dentures

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Love should not be scary

Love should not hurt.

Love should be calm and safe.

Love is safe.

April 15/2024

All my life I have been told to stop this or that, or someone would pick at me and my behaviours until I stopped them.

My coping mechanisms, writing on myself, snapping an elastic band on my wrist. Heck !! Eating ketchup!

Eventually the picking eroded away who I was, who I am as a person.

No wonder why I always felt lost . I lost who I was.

Now I remember who I am. I am Jasmine Wilson

I am brave

I am confident

I am safe

I am okay

I trust myself to keep me safe

I love myself

I am number one

               I am number one

April 17/2024

My time in the psych unit has been very...transformative.

Over stimulation and PTSD triggers can make a person go into overdrive. I am not so fearful,

Keyed up, on Edge. I am beginning to feel relieved. Normal.

Middle of February I left home with my two youngest children and went to a woman's shelter. At the shelter I felt safe. Warm. My laughter was coming back. My bond with my daughter was growing stronger. We were having fun.

I did leave my older boys, as I wasn't going to force them to come with me, being 12 and 15 afterall. Looking back I should have made them come with me.

I will no longer live in a toxic environment.

As the day goes on I am beginning to feel more grounded.

I am getting a doctor to check my gums as I'm feeling some pain.

What if the reason for this episode that I am in was caused from an infection in my gums ?

Reminds me—Get a lock box for my journals***

I am leaving the stuff about my Ex out of this book.** maybe in time I will feel brave enough to write about it for the world. All I feel comfortable saying is that he is an expert at arguing and making me dizzy.

Positivity:

· My meds seem to be working

· The sun is shining

· Skip the dishes is amazing! Hey a girl has to have her coffee!

· Walking is very refreshing

Memories cannot hurt me

April 18/2024

Ten minutes to a lasting memory!