Six days out of the psyche ward, I have had to take an Ativan 4 times, in the last 6 days. Progress over perfection.
My intrusive thoughts toward my children have dissipated significantly.
I am wondering could it be the miscarriage I had when I was 14, and I flushed that unborn child down the toilet. Could that be a source of why I had those weird distressing intrusive thoughts. Because I did in face flush a human life down the toilet.
I understand the logical parts of it of course. Was not alive. I panicked when I had done so.
Interesting how the human mind can truly be.
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It has been a long 5 weeks, I am ready to be a mom again. I miss my kiddos. Although this time going forward I will be filling up my bucket of care up first...so then I am full enough to fill my children's as well.
Although I feel guilty about having to spend such a long time without them, it was for the beneficial of the long term. I am stronger and rested to be 90% for them
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