I didn't realize that the fuzzy noise, almost like static from an old TV, was racing thoughts. I always thought it was actual thoughts, like what am I having for dinner, what am I doing tomorrow, why does the wall have a crack, oh my goodness I need to clean this and that.
Little did I know that not being able to hear myself think, was actual racing thoughts. Its a very strange new experience being able to hear my self within my own head. I sound nice ;)
Not being able to see clearly was apart of my fight, flight, freeze , defense mechanism. The human brain is so very powerful!
I was able to take a walk today, enjoying a very leisurely pace. Was able to appreciate the smell of the grass and the smell of lady bug pee.
Feeling the warmth and heaviness the sun was wrapping me in with its glorious rays of sunshine. So peaceful. I could have taken a nap in the glow.
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