This song was played in my first period the day after I found out about you.
There isn't really a lot in this world that can make me break down into tears, but those words... I wish I had heard that song sooner.
You weren't crazy. You were just a little unwell. I wish I had paid more attention. I wish that I would have been able to see that sooner.
My voice is so hoarse from all the crying I did yesterday. I keep randomly thinking about what you did, and I start crying every time. Or I at least get close.
After your funeral yesterday our people weren't doing very well. Obviously. We lost a brother and a son. You are such an important part of our family.
We all went up to talk to your biological sister and parents. After that, we all went straight outside and broke down. Kayla seemed pretty upset. She told us we all had to outlive her.
I can't say I blame her.
You know, I never thought you of all people would make me cry. But here we are.
You were such a dork.
Looking at all those pictures on the slide show, my gosh man, you were such a dork. In a good way. You already knew that, though.
I remembered that one time when you, Will, and Arin all started running down the hall, chasing Brandt with swords. Not the foam ones or plastic or wood. Real swords. When I asked where yall had gotten them, it was you who answered, "Zay found 'em"
That memory keeps making me laugh so hard, but it's insane how I go from laughing at that to crying that we'll never have an interaction like that again on this Earth.
I'm really looking forward to waking up now. This stupid nightmare has gone on long enough.
I know you're really gone. I just don't want to face that. Maybe it's unhealthy. I really don't care. I just don't want you to really be gone.
You could've done so much more if you only had time.
