Shut up. Shut up, shut up, shut up! I need out of my mind.
What if I'm the only one stuck here? What if I'm the one left in a group of three? What if I don't matter?
"Groups of three don't work."
Do I belong with one person? Am I being cheated? It seems like everyone I know has someone. Someone that isn't me.
"They don't need you."
Shut up. I have a purpose. I have to, right? Doesn't everyone?
"Not everyone can have a purpose. That's why they die."
No. Everyone has a purpose. Everyone contributes something to this life.
"But look around, my love. You're the only one who gets teased so much. You're the only one who is uncomfortable with it. You don't speak up. They can't tell because they're too caught up in each other."
But I just want to make them happy. That's what makes them happy, so what does it matter?
"Don't you know deep down that you're going to get left behind? You're supposed to be smart. "
I am. That's how I know not to listen to you.
"But I know all about the way you feel. That's got to mean I know something."
Just because you know the way I feel doesn't mean you get to tell me I'm not smart.
"Oh really? How about this? Your 'friends' don't care. You are useless, worthless. You try to stay happy, but it just doesn't work. You live like you're okay with everything when you're crumbling inside. Your 'friends' want nothing to do with you. They're waiting until your downfall"
You don't get to speak to me like that. Stop putting my friends in quotes. I love them.
"Oh you love them do you? What about them? The ones who never talk to you? The ones you never talk to? Even him? The one who left you alone? They don't care. They don't love you."
Yes they do. Why are you doing this? And you have no business talking about him. He cared about everyone. He loved me. That man was the most perfect person. The one anyone should look up to. You don't get to talk about him. You don't deserve it.
"Oh my love, why be like this? You know what I'm saying is true. Don't even try to deny it. I'm just watching out for you. Don't you know your mind knows you best? They obviously don't know you at all. They can't even tell their teasing fuels me."
What do you want from me? I will give you anything to go away. Why do you want to turn me away from everyone?
"The people who don't care don't need my help. My dear, I don't want anything from you. I'm trying to save you. Haven't I helped you along all these years? I know what's good for you. I know your every thought."
Oh really?
"Yes really. That's how I know every little thing that bothers you. You hate being left alone. You're scared of it. You know it's getting bad, but you won't tell anyone. You won't say anything to a single person. You feel like you're trapped. You feel like everyone in your life is leaving. Somedays, you feel ready."
Shut up. No. No I don't. I love life.
"I'm sure."
Get. Me. Out. Of. Here.
