What happened to me? I used to be so bright and happy. My light is now dull. My veins feel as if there's no blood flowing through them.
Maybe it's the way everyone started changing as we got older. Maybe it's how much I'm missing a brother I won't get back for another lifetime. Maybe I can't explain it.
Whatever happened turned me into someone little me would hide from. Little me would be terrified. I've disappointed her. I'm sorry, little one. Life happens.
I don't know if I'll ever get the parts of me back that made me the person I was. I wish I could. But I guess it's too late now.
I wish time machines were real. Those silly little inventions we used to want as kids. We honestly wanted them for completely different reasons, but we wanted them to be real so bad.
I need one for so many things. To talk him out of it. To make him stay. To stand up for little me. To give myself good reasons.
Somedays suck. I want time machines to be real so bad. I feel like I need them to be real. I'm running through so many scenarios in my head on how I could've saved him.
LJ?
"Yes?"
Remember what was said.
Enjoy right now today, Enjoy the moments. Live in the now.
