Raymond 'Rooster' Jones is a 21 year old man who didn't come from money and is from the other side of the tracks. Raised by his aunt and uncle. Rooster who should be enjoying life as any 21 year old kid should be doing. But Rooster's life is not abo...
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ROOSTER
I was finally home and glad to be here, Rima was with Katt she wanted to spend some time with her. I had wrote Jada a letter and had to let it out and tell her how I feel. Since I had some time to think and really get to the root of what I was really feeling. So I had sat down and wrote her a letter and hopefully this will make sense to her or at least make things better.
'Dear Jada
I'm sorry love, I got you pregnant. I should worn a condom, I should have protected you a whole lot better. I can never begin to make up for the way I have treated you. I know that the anguish and pain I see in your eyes is caused by me. You are a perfect match to me. Your inner strength and kindness is always a breath of fresh air when I am going crazy.
You have loved me unconditionally, and been a better girlfriend than I could have ever expected I am sorry for yelling at you, putting my hands on you. I am sorry for the pain I have caused you. I am sorry for the damage done to our relationship, and our friendship. The shame I feel cannot compare to the despair I feel for having hurt you.
I took you for granted when I should have been taking you into my arms. I am not worthy of your forgiveness I hope you can forgive me one day. I blamed you for wanting to get rid of our child; it breaks my heart to know you felt compelled to abort our child. I never listened to you when you talked. I was oblivious to your pain. I was too concerned with my confusion to look to yours. There is no excuse for my betrayal. There is no reason on earth for my behavior. You have been more than patient with me.
I feel a pit of despair in my soul when I think of what I did to you. If I could erase the pain and anguish I have caused you I would. I would wipe it all away, but I can't. There is nothing I can say to you that will make anything better. In reality, I realize I am a broken person, with deep seated fears and insecurities that I try to minimize by deflecting them onto others.
I am sorry for letting you down. I am sorry I have ruined your life but I love you so much. I don't really want to go without talking to you, hugging you, kissing you.. I know I'm wrong and I feel so stupid about it.. I love you so much and I will do everything for you and don't ever think that there was or there will be a time that I stopped or will stop loving you because each and every day since the day that I fell in love with you.
And all I can think every day I was away is you, it pains me to think a life where I will not be able to see your face, to talk to you, to hold you, to kiss you. I'm sorry I can't be the man that you expected me to be sometimes, always. I'm sorry for not being manly enough to talk when you're mad and wait till you demand me to talk. Sorry for not understanding the words you said.
I love you so much, sorry, can you forgive me and give me your heart back, I can't promise that I will not make you cry again because it's me, I'm stupid, I do stupid things impulsively. But I do promise not to leave by your side, although if you told me to leave you, just remember that you can always call me anytime and I will come to you until you tell me to leave.
