(this chapter also contains messages about rape and assault)
larry
i had been messaging travis consecutively after school that day, struggling to convince him i was sorry. no matter how much i tried he wouldn't believe me.
larry
listen im srry ok i shouldnt have treated u like that
everyone forgives u
promise
travis
why r u mocking me jst stop
ik ur lying to me
i've alr said i'm sorry for treating u all like that
what else do u want from me
larry
i promise i'm not
i'm srry just give me another chance
pls
travis
i swr leave me alone
afterwards i called him constantly for ages, yet he never picked up. it always went to voice mail or he just hung up on me.
travis
seriously
i hate you
i tried to ignore the message, setting my phone down and frowning while thinking to myself again, knowing me and travis could've had something together but i ruined it, even if it was only friendship. not like i wanted anything else. no matter what, i never gave up on trying to talk to him and convince him.
larry
please travis
i swear we forgive u i'll do anything to prove it
travis
okay
larry
seriously?
travis
yh
get ashley to tell me to my face
and actually prove it by being friends with me
properly
larry
ofc
i promise
i smiled to myself, my mood changing so quickly. as i read back through the messages, i stumbled upon something i didn't want to find. i had been scrolling through messages with random people out of boredom, laughing at some old messages and sometimes feeling generally upset. i never would've looked if i knew i would've found messages from my ex girlfriend.
larry
hi beautifull
when are you coming over?
christina
not long
you know what i want to do don't you
larry
please not tonight christie
you know i don't like it that much
christina
come on laramie just do it for me please
you know how much i love it
i won't hurt you this time
larry
but you say that every time
please not tonight okay
maybe another day
christina
do you not love me is that it
larry
honey no you know i love you
sometimes it just hurts
i don't like it when you do that thing
you know what i mean
christina
come on baby
i know you love it secretly
just this once
larry
okay
christina
don't bite me this time
i swear to god
i stared down at my phone, completely unable to move at the fact i could be so easily manipulated and so stupid to give into her like that, knowing i was strong enough to say no, yet i just couldn't. no matter how much i cried and bled i could never ever say no to her because i was scared of being made to feel like i was the bad person.
travis
r u ok btw
u haven't been looking the best
i moved my fingers across the screen, struggling on what to say. i couldn't say anything but blankly sit there. why didn't i just tell him?
larry
im ok
thanks
r u
travis
yea
knowing he felt the same as me, i watched the bubble that showed him typing disappear. i knew i had to speak to him again.
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dear diary (larvis)
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