dear diary (larvis)

dear diary - camera

ashley
the relationship between larry and travis was so clearly growing stronger and i loved it. sure i wasn't exactly 100% okay with travis yet but i forgived him that's for sure. seeing larry so happy after being so upset for years made me happy too. i can't stay mad at travis for that.

when night came we all watched movies together, mostly on illegal websites so every time a porno-pop up came on screen travis would gag. travis ended up getting drunk and larry was now trying to get him high for some reason.
"they taste great i swear."
larry isn't usually one to peer pressure but now that he was severely high he definitely would be. larry doesn't really get drunk anymore, which is good since he used to drown himself in it and usually make himself really ill. the more the night went on the more i liked travis. they would hit eachother playfully, play games on the game boy together, laugh together, sometimes even sing together when we forced them to do karaoke. only when travis was drunk enough, which was only about half a bottle if we managed to convince him.

that night larry was sitting beside travis, smiling and laughing together, after a really stupid scene in a movie. i don't even think the scene was remotely funny, i think the booze was just controlling them. when they laughed both their eyes were both closed so they couldn't see how pretty their smiles were. both their mouths were open and they were showing off their teeth, and travis was clutching onto larry's shoulder to try and control his laughter. larry's cheeks were bunched up, pushing his eyes closed. his teeth were poking out of his mouth and he had such a stupid but contagious laugh. when travis laughed his tongue slightly stuck out of his mouth and his teeth bit down onto it. his laugh was so high pitched, just like a little girls. when he laughed, he cried too.

i stood up, and bent down in front of them, taking a flash picture to really capture all the details of their faces. they immediately realised after and stopped laughing.
"did you take a picture?"
i laughed, printing a picture and waving it about a little before handing it to larry.
"look how sweet. you two look so happy."
travis turned bright red as he stared at the picture.
"god. look at my teeth."
he frowned and shifted his eyes to larry in the picture, not saying a word. larry held the picture in his hand, smiling.
"i love this. can i keep it?"
he smiled and held it tightly and travis turned his head to face him.
"why do you want to keep it? i look awful."
"no you don't travis. you look gorgeous-"
he cut his sentence short, turning away awkwardly.

"you two need to date. it would be so so cute. please?"
they both shook their heads, larry still holding the picture.
"i like larry a lot but not like that."
"but travis you make him so happy. really you do. even if larry denies it he knows it. i'm not trying to peer pressure you but you would be really cute."
not once did he mention that he isny gay or that he's a christian.
"are you still homophobic?"
he scoffed.
"what do you think?"
"i really don't know because you're giving me mixed signals."
he unfolded his arms and extended his legs.
"ofcourse i'm not homophobic. i never was. but i'm not gay either."
by the way larry looked at him i knew travis was lying.