dear diary (larvis)

dear diary - nice to see you again

(guys i'm so sorry. you are not going to enjoy these next few chapters. but it's going to make it so much better because of larry and travis relationship. if you're into lovers who keep getting pulled away from each other but always find their way back this is for you!!)

larry
there was a knock at the door. after the previous events with travis' dad, i always answered the door, and kept travis in the closet. he didn't come back in until i told him it was okay. nobody bad showed up though.

i poked my head through the gap in the door. this person looked so much like travis. like incredibly like travis. they had the same figure, same height, same everything. they even sounded the same. just she was a girl.
"um, hi? who's this?"
she seemed to be crying, with a black eye. just like travis.
"hi! i'm faith. faith phelps. please can i come in. i really have nowhere to stay. i- i'm travis sister. our dad started hitting me too."
i couldn't help but feel bad. but i had a weird feeling. an odd gut feeling that this was a put on.

"well.."
i mean what can she do? she seems harmless.
"come in."
she stepped in, smiling.
"thank you! thank you so much!"
i had a weird feeling about this.

"so um.. you look a lot like travis."
she smiled.
"we're twins. not identical, because were different genders. but we are almost identical."
i nodded, darting an odd look at my mom who had just come out from her room.
"oh hi tra- uh. that's a girl."
normal i would have 'told off' my mom for being rude but it was exactly what i thought. they literally looked the exact same. i definitely wasn't attracted to her though, something seemed off. but it was too late to kick her out. and she seemed legitimate. hm. maybe i shouldn't have opened the door.
"i'm faith. nice to meet you.."
she squinted at her name tag.
"lisa."
my mom smiled awkwardly before glancing at me. she felt it too.

faith
shit. i should not be doing this. he's my family. he's my brother. but i can't betray my father. god knows what he'll do.

he seemed to be finally happy. being on this home makes me feel dreadful knowing what i'm going to do in a few hours. sometimes i hate myself. and my dad. um. forget i wrote that.

travis came out of the room which probably belonged to laramie. god did he look different. happy. he was happy. fuck my life.

"travis."
he looked me up and down before slamming the door he just came out of. he had that look on his face when he was incredibly upset but all he did was stare through his eyebrows with a blank face. i don't think he wanted me here along with everyone else. but i had to do this. for myself. for him.

"so.. faith. you can sleep out here. i can get you some blankets if you like."
laramie and his mother had the same accent. like how travis sounded like daphne. i don't like calling her mom anymore. since travis has been gone father found a new partner. as much as i don't like her i can't help but feel bad. it's going to end the same way as it did with daphne.

she clearly did not want me here. she knew something was up. everyone did. they clearly only wanted travis. and i don't blame them one bit. but i'll be gone soon. and so will he. he probably won't come back. i feel so bad.

i heard laramie's door open. shockingly travis came out of it.
"why are you here faith."
he noticed my black eye but chose not to comment on it.
"same reason you left."
he nodded slowly, sitting at the dinner table beside lisa. she liked him and he liked her. i'm ruining a family.

i think laramie and travis are in a relationship. the way they look at each other told me they were. i can't believe myself. but i really can't turn back. or can i?

i ate some of the food lisa made. it was some german thing. i don't remember what it was called. travis enjoyed it. probably the last meal he will ever enjoy.

i sat on the couch, staring at my phone with my dads chat open. i waited for the right time. for them to fall asleep. their door was cracked open a little so when i heard it go quiet, i poked my head in. i could see lisa from the couch. she was asleep. i could see laramie if i poked my head in. he was asleep, travis wasn't. i turned on my phone.

faith
ready