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75:

75. “What are you doing here?” I coldly said once we got in the parking lot.

Napilitan akong bumaba dahil alam kong hindi siya nagbibiro sa binabalak niya. I tried to push him away but he’s still following me until I came here.

“Why didn’t you visit me?” Blanko niyang tugon imbis na sagutin ang tanong ko. I don’t know what to feel now he’s here in front of me.

Should I leave him? Should I apologize for what I did? Should I feel guilty? Should I shout and get angry with him?

Or should I k*ll him?

I do not f*cking know.

Gusto kong itarak ang patalim na nakatago lamang sa hita ko pero mayroong parte sa akin na hindi ko kayang gawin ang gusto ko.

Bakit? Dahil ba may nararamdaman pa ako?

Napa-iling ako. Imposible.

Siguro ay dahil nakokonsensya pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

Tama. Siguro nga.

“Why would I?” Tanong ko rin sa tanong niya.

“Because I am your husband,” direktang sambit nito kaya pagak akong natawa.

“You ‘were’ my husband,” diin ko sa isang salita. I brushed my hair through my fingers and irritably searched for my keys.

“Why did you even come back, anyway? To k*ll me as well like what you did to my parents?” Galit kong saad at tumingin sa kaniya.

His eyes are colder than before but I can sense longingness in him.

“Can you just listen to me first?” He pleaded.

“What for? To clear your name in front of me?” I sarcastically said and frowned.

“Please, wife…”

“I’m not your fúckíng wife, matagal na tayong tapos. Leave me alone,” hinawi ko ang kamay niya nang akma ako nitong pipigilan sa pagsakay ng kotse. Umupo ako sa driver’s seat at isasara na sana ang pinto nang hawakan nanaman niya ito.

I deeply sighed, refraining myself from blurting my anger out.

“Hindi pa ako pumapayag na maghihiwalay tayo,” pagmamatigas niya. I sarcastically laughed and glared at him, “hindi ba’t ikaw na ang unang nagfile ng divorce paper sa’ting dalawa? So what the héll are you complaining about?”

“Just hear me out first, Celestine…”

“Get the héll out of my sight. Pagod na akong pakinggan ang mga kasinungalingan mo. Don’t even dare to show yourself in front of me again dahil baka ako na ang sumásak at pumatáy sa’yo.”