THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 43: HOT AND PASSION

                                                                                              TOM'S VIEW

I am losing control. I have never wanted to kiss a girl as bad as I want to kiss Alyssa. Not just kiss her, devour her mouth, taste her, try and make her moan.

She's driving me insane, I don't know how much longer I can take it.

I can't mess this up. The last thing I want to do is make her feel uncomfortable around me.

I can't move too fast with her. 

Looking in her eyes, after that powerful hug we just shared, the look in her eyes to me was saying she would want me to kiss her or be okay with it and kiss me back.

But maybe that is just what I want to see. Maybe it would freak her out if I kiss her.

She was emotional, I regret asking her to sing that song for me, there was no music, just her beautiful voice, and it was so intimate that it freaked me out a little. I've never experienced intimacy with a girl. To me sex is not intimacy, not like this. This was so powerful, the whole night has been like this. 

I tried last night to give her a romantic night, to cook for her, and even if Donnie would not have showed up, and we were alone, I don't think I could have made it special like tonight has turned out to be. And we didn't plan it, it just happened.

We shared a powerful moment, when she was comforting me about my dad, when my memories flooded my mind, and hit me hard. I felt it, this powerful strong intense insane connection.

And then when I had her sing to me, and I could see that her mind was going back to that time in her life when she wrote that song, it took her back to that pain, and I wanted to comfort her, and held her. It was that insane intense connection.

When she looked at me, I almost lost total control and gave into my desires for this girl. I almost blew it. I almost just reacted to the moment and to the love I was feeling for her and kissed her.

I'm burning up, I'm hot, I've never had a girl get me this hard, and aroused. It's insane because Alyssa doesn't even have to touch me, just say my name, or talk in her sweet voice, and she has me rock hard, miserable, aching for her.

I have to get away from this girl before I lose control and do something I can't take back, and mess up my chance to be with her.

I have to get out of this room. She's too close to me. Her scent of her shampoo and her perfume are drugs to me, and making me want her even more.

Her lips are so beautiful and enticing me like no girl has ever done before. All I can focus on is wanting to kiss her. I have to take a break, go upstairs, get away from her. 

I hate to leave her down here alone. I know she will be safe, it's just tonight has been so special, and I've had so much fun with her. I hate to lose one minute of time with her, but if I don't I will make the biggest mistake of my life. I can't resist her much longer.

I tell her I'll be back, and I go upstairs.

                                                                                           ALYSSA'S VIEW:

Tonight has been the second best night of my life. I think the best night was our date that Jordan arranged for us, even though it wasn't real.

I feel such a strong connection to Tommy. His pain, even though he tries to hide it, I can see it in his eyes. His feelings of loss, and guilt that he feels over his dad. I can see that darkness in his eyes.