THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 70: WEDDING DATE

                                                                                ALYSSA'S VIEW:

It's Saturday, and I woke up feeling sick. It's just my nerves, but I'm just nervous to be at the wedding. And come face to face with my mom. I'm sure that my mom has alerted the media that I'm in town. She wants publicity. And I don't want to cause a scene so I'm going to have to act like nothing has happened with my mom. Smile for the cameras. I'm getting used to that, putting on a performance, masking my pain.

I'm worried that I'm going to fall down trip on my dress when I walk up to sing. Everyone in the church will be staring at me, and it's going to have a lot of people in attendance, all staring at me.

I'm worried that I will forget the words to the song, and look like a fool.

Tom is being really sweet. When I woke up, feeling sick, he told me he'd go downstairs, and get me some water, and make me some toast. He has tried to tell me not to worry, I won't fall and I won't forget the words.

He told me that all I need to do is look at him, if that will help me to relax. I can look at him during my song.

Jordan told me the same. He and his mom were going to come to the wedding, and sit with us, and he told me that if I forget the words he'll be up there and sing a duet with me. But he doesn't think that will happen.

I asked Marlene if she would help me get ready. I told her I bought a new dress, that I kind of fell in love with the dress, but didn't think it looked very good on me, but Judy insisted that I get it.

She told me she knew it would look good, and she said that Jordan's sisters could come over, and do my hair and makeup if I wanted them to..

We were upstairs, and I put the dress on. They all 3 loved it, and said it was beautiful. And they thought Tom was going to die when he saw me in it. 

I said, "you guys we are just friends."

They laughed at me again when I said that.  I said, "We are."

They said, "Maybe now, but not for long. Not with the way that man looks at you."

 I'm thinking that as much as I want to look at Tom when I'm singing that may be a mistake.

He is so hot and so handsome. Not sure what he is wearing to the wedding, and it doesn't matter to me. 

But if he is in a black suit, I think I will feel like passing out, so looking at him might not help me. Plus being with him at a wedding, is going to just make me dream about marrying him. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. 

A girl can dream right?  Even if she knows it won't happen.

                                                                                        TOM'S VIEW

Today is the wedding. I'm glad, because Alyssa stresses herself out to the point that she almost makes herself sick.

She has a beautiful voice, and she has no reason to worry.

I get it that this is different, because her family is there, her mom, disapproves of her, and her sisters, her aunt, uncle, cousin, she doesn't want to let them down. But I keep telling her she won't.

She's got this. I believe in her.

Not looking forward to seeing her mom again. I'm still so mad, and pissed off at that woman. And her assistant. I could have lost Alyssa. I could have lost the chance to be with her. 

That is against the law also, to just go get in bed with someone.

There is a thing called consent, and it doesn't matter even if I am a man, I have the choice of if I want to sleep with a girl or not,  and pick who that girl is.