THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 53: COMFORT

                                                                              ALYSSA'S VIEW

I'm a little sad today. Judy and Tom's mom flew back home. It was so fun having them here. They both have been so sweet to me.

I have come to realize how much I have missed having friends that are girls. When that happened in high school with my best friends, I guess to protect myself I just didn't let any girls in, and didn't trust people to really be more than casual acquaintances.

I thought I was ok with my choice, but having Judy as a friend has been so fun.  Whether we are just sitting on the bed talking about the guys or eating a tube of ice cream and binge watching tv or movies. I've missed having that best friend that was a girl.

And I'm trying to play it off and be all casual about it, but I'm dying for any and all stories about Tom. I hope that Judy didn't figure out why, I try and act like I want to just hear stories about all the guys at Jump Street. And she has funny stories about all 4 of her fellow officers. But I especially love the ones about Tom.

Jordan has been great, always there for me whenever I need to talk. He can always make me laugh   But there are just some conversations that I don't want to have with a guy. I'm really grateful for Judy's friendship. It means so much to me.

That is why I wanted to buy her dress for the Grammies since she is going to go with us, but she refused. She said she couldn't let me. The invite was more than kind.

But having her here for 2 weeks has been so much fun. Even before my stalker, usually I just would order my clothes and stuff online. It's not worth it to have to go to the mall after hours, and usually Jordan would have one of his guards he hired for me go and follow behind me. It's not much fun to shop alone, or go out to eat alone, so I just stopped doing it when Rob and I broke up.

So I had so much fun going to the mall with Tom's mom and Judy.  

We said our goodbyes, and Tom gave his mom and Judy a hug, and they left.  Then I went upstairs to my room and laid on the bed.  I felt like crying, and I didn't want Tom to see me because I know it's silly.

Tom came up and knocked on the door.

I said, "Yes Tom?"

He said, "Can I come in?"

I tried to hide the fact I had been crying, and said, "yes just a minute."

Tom came in. He stared at me a minute.

He ran his hands through his dark gorgeous hair.  He's so sexy when he does that. I wonder if he knows that.

He said, "um are you okay?"

I said, "yeah I'm fine."

He said, " I was just checking on you. Is anything wrong?"

I said, "I know it's silly for me to cry, so I was trying to hide it from you."

He said, "You don't need to ever feel silly for being emotional, and please don't hide it if you're sad come talk to me, let me help you. I can listen or offer a hug."

I got up and went and hugged him. He smells so good. Another thing that drives me crazy.

I cried on his shoulder. 

I said, "I am just crying because I had so much fun with Judy and your mom. I guess I just accepted a long time ago, my life would be just me, no real girl friends, and just Jordan and the guys for friends I thought I was okay with it, but I had so much fun, just binge watching tv and eating ice cream, and shopping at the mall, instead of shopping alone. I know it's silly. Because I'll see them again."