THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 52: MOM'S KNOW

                                                                                              TOM'S VIEW

I am still down in the kitchen. Having a beer.

I keep thinking about how perfect today and tonight was. Alyssa was so happy, and hearing her laugh, seeing her laugh it is like magical.

I honestly don't recognize myself. Using words like magical to describe a girl laughing.  I don't know how this happened to me.

I called Doug and Harry earlier. They were playing in a poker game, so I wanted to find out how that went, and they asked about Alyssa and Judy, and so then I ended up rambling on about how perfect tonight was, seeing Alyssa laughing so hard.  Then they started razzing me about what has happened to me. I told them yeah I'm wondering that to.

I find myself just sitting thinking about Alyssa all the time. Picturing her in my head. Reliving each conversation. 

I think I need to get more sleep because sometimes it's like I see her so clearly in my head it's like she's here in the room with me.

I know I'm going crazy. I had no idea love made you feel like this. It's a high I've never experienced before, and one I never want to come down from.

I was thinking about Alyssa and how beautiful she looked when she was laughing so hard at my story that she cried. She had her hand on her tummy holding it because it was making her side hurt laughing so hard.

She was so adorable, I mean how could I not laugh.

Watching her laugh and smile is contagious. I end up laughing just thinking about it.

So lost in thought about Alyssa, I didn't notice my mom come into the kitchen and sit down at the table.

She said, "You know I almost gave up on you."

I cleared my throat. And was hoping I did not have a silly grin on my face. Or that my mom caught me down here laughing at nothing. I don't even have my phone, it's in my pocket so I can't pretend I was laughing at something on my phone.

I said, "What's that mom, gave up on me?"

She said, "yes falling in love. I have wanted this for you for so long, and you always told me it would never happen, I about gave up. "

I said, 'Mom no I don't know what you 're talking about."  

She laughed. She said, "Deny it all you want, but I'm your mother, and I know what I'm talking about. You my son are in love with Alyssa. One of these days you are going to have to stop denying it and admit it to yourself before you lose your chance at happiness and love."

I said, "Fine, I'm not denying it, but would you please keep your voice down, and please don't tell Alyssa about this. How did you know?"

She said, "Mom's know these things. Especially when it's written all over your face the way you look at her. I have noticed it since the day you brought her home to meet me, but especially this trip and tonight. I've never seen you so happy Tom. I'm so happy for you. I hate how you found her, I hate she's being stalked and her life in danger, but I'm so glad it brought you two together."

I said, "Mom is it that obvious? Do you know if Alyssa knows?"

She said, "Alyssa is totally clueless. I think partly because she has such a low self esteem which is truly hard to believe. She is loved by so many fans, and yet I get the feeling from being around her she doesn't think she deserves it."

I said, "yeah it makes me sad, she doesn't see how beautiful she is, her parents didn't want her and so they let her know that she disrupted their lives, they had already raised two girls who they adored and then she was a late in life baby. They did so much damage to her, and then what Rob did to her. Not to mention her high school boyfriend."