THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 50: BAD NEWS

                                                                                             TOM'S VIEW

It was a long night, but I managed to get some sleep. Actually I woke up late. I guess because I am exhausted.  

The lack of sleep because of Alyssa is catching up to me.

It was 9 am.

I took a shower, then went downstairs.

She was on the couch. Looking beautiful.

She had on a yellow shirt, with denim overalls on.

She looks so damn adorable. I stared at her awhile.

She said, "Morning Tommy."

I said, 'morning, I'm sorry I guess I overslept."

She said, "that's fine. The guys brought donuts."

I said, "Guys."  I cringe at the thought of those two guards.

Damn I wish I would not have slept so long, I hate that she was down here alone, and  of course those two guards brought her donuts. My suspicions were confirmed when I said guys and she told me which ones brought the donuts.

I have to cool it. I can't get mad over it. I just wish I was down here that's all. I wonder how long they stayed. I'm sure they flirted with her.

She said, "If you want some donuts I saved you some, otherwise I can make you breakfast."

I said, 'You don't need to. I think I'll have some cereal, but thanks."  I went into the kitchen.

She came into the kitchen and got her some milk.

She sat at the table. 

She said, "I'm sorry, you probably don't eat donuts. I mean since your body is so."  She blushed.

I smirked at her. I couldn't help it.

I said, "so what?"  I gave her a smile.

She laughed, and said, "how do I say it, fit, hard, no um  muscles, no fit yeah."

I said, "Thank you. I do eat donuts though."

She said, "I shouldn't I know because I'm fat."

I laughed. I said, 'Alyssa you are tiny. You are not fat. There is nothing fat on you."

She said, 'I feel like I'm fat. I should lose weight, especially if Jordan wants me to go on this tour."

She mentioned the tour yesterday, and I was too busy thinking about what I needed to tell her, that it just hit me, if she goes on this tour, all over the country or world, then I will never see her. I will lose her. Even if she did want to date me, what happens if she meets another guy on this tour? And then it hits me that if she goes on this tour, and I have to stay here, I'll go insane, I'll be missing her 24 hours a day, look what just a day of her distancing herself from me did.

I realized I never answered her.

I said, "Alyssa please don't try and lose weight. You don't need to be on a diet."

She said, "Thank you for saying that."

I said, 'So this tour you mentioned."

She said, "yeah I don't think I'm ready."

I said, "Did you tell Jordan that? He isn't going to make you do it right, just tell him you aren't ready."

I didn't realize how that must have sounded to her, I am upset about the thought of her being gone for months or even longer. I thought when this case was over, I'd have my chance to ask her to be my girlfriend, but if this tour starts when this case is over, I'll lose her.