THE COP AND THE POP STAR

CHAPTER 45: WHAT JUST HAPPENED

                                                                                                       ALYSSA'S VIEW:

I have never been kissed like that, okay not like I've been kissed by a lot of guys, just 2, but never that passionate or powerful that sent my body into another orbit.

I could barely make it up the stairs, my legs shaking, my whole body shaking actually.

I went into my room, and went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

Flashes of Tom and I running through my mind, image after image, him kissing me, picking me up, carrying me to the pool table, lying me down on it, what he was doing to my body, the way it felt, his kisses, his lips.

I decided I would take a hot bath, so I turned the water on, and then just sat there dazed and reliving every single kiss.

I thought we were going to make love. We would have if he wouldn't have stopped it.

Although it hurt to have him stop it, because I feel like this was probably my only chance to know what it would be like to be with him, I'm still so euphoric and emotional on what happened. I can't help but cry. The tears streaming down my face.

I love him so much. I never even knew I could love like that. I grew up wishing that I could have a fairy tale love story, I felt like I didn't belong in my family, and I grew up wishing that I could have someone love me deeply, and he would be like my knight or my prince.

When I got older, and then had my first boyfriend, and then he hurt me, and then Rob humiliated me, and hurt me, just used me, never loved me, I thought I was incapable of being loved. So I gave up on ever falling in love again, or wanting to be with a man.

Then I met Tom. And even though our first meeting was bad because of me hitting his car, and he wasn't that nice, and was angry and upset at me, there was just something about him. He was hot, and he was turning me on with how he was getting upset at me, even if he was making me mad.

Then this happened and he became my bodyguard, which I've tried to not fantasize it, but it seems like maybe it's fate, I mean what are the chances that I hit his car, and he was so upset with me, only to a few weeks later have him be my bodyguard and the man who is going to protect me from my stalker. And then we become close friends.

I have never experienced what he made me feel, the electricity, it was like fireworks and bombs exploding, and I've tried to not get my hopes up that we could be more than friends. I know Tom doesn't do relationships. But I do believe he cares and wants to be friends. And I was all set to just be happy if I could stay in his life as his friend.

But then tonight happened.  There was just something different between us tonight.  Words not being spoken, but the way we communicated with our eyes, staring at each other, how intimate it was, dancing, singing, and I was hoping for a kiss.

But I never dreamed I would get kissed like that.

I can't help but hope and wonder that maybe a miracle has happened, and Tom does feel the same way about me. I don't mean that he would want to be in a long-term relationship. But if he is okay with a short term one, as long as he wouldn't cheat on me. I will, even though it will hurt me when it's over.

I can't help but wonder why he stopped us. Did he do it because he thinks it's unprofessional since he's, my bodyguard?

Or did he stop because he didn't plan for it to go that far, and he's being a gentleman with me?

Just for tonight, I'm going to relive that moment over and over, until I fall asleep, and just hope that maybe this means that in the future, when this case is over, maybe Tom and I could be a real couple. If only for a short time. I mean I would never betray him like that bitch did. I know our relationship would be short term, but he could count on me to have his back and be there for him. He could trust me with anything.