take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 26

billie pov:

im going on tour in two weeks and i want river to come with me but im scared she will say no

we are in the car taking noahs family back to the airport as daisy parents decided to stay a little longer in a hotel

"bills can i scroll through insta on your phone mines dead" she looked at me with those puppy eyes she does

"sure" i hand her my phone and we arrive at the airport "it was so nice to finally meet you all" river says hugging them one by one "you to maybe we could come back when the little one is born" she nodded in agreement and they walked inside the airport

river pov:

im on instagram reels until some girl named hollie dms billie, im not one to be nosey or snoop but i just wanted to know who she was

i press on her dm to see messages back and fourth so billie knows her? cool.

i scroll up and see texts 'ill see you later mamas' what? i dig deeper to see 'i love yous' and shit, hold up has she been seeing me and this hollie girl?

hollies gorgeous ill give her that, bright green eyes and blonde hair... not normally billies type but sure.

i see hollie sending locations to billie for them to meet, one of them was my favourite restaurant, this can wait till we get home

"you okay mamas" she asked "mhm" i throw, she looked at me so fast her neck may as well of snapped

we pull up into billies drive way and i instantly get out the car taking her phone with me "whats the rush" she says jokingly trying to catch up with me

i run up the stairs without realising claudia and maggie were sat on the sofa "is she okay" i hear claudia ask but i decided to go into billies room and get my things

the door opens and closes as i stuff as much as i can into my bag "im confused what are you doing?" she looks at me and sits on her bed

"hollie" i spit throwing my bag on the floor, her face dropped "dont try make up an excuse billie im sick of this"

she stands up trying to take my hand "dont" i snatch it back "im sorry really ri" i scoff "your sorry i found out you were clearly loving your meet ups and cute flirty conversation while i was sleeping in your bed" i shout

"we arent official and she doesn't mean anything to me" i laugh and roll my eyes slamming my phone onto her desk "your joking? we arent official yet im not seeing other girls behind your back? when you said you loved me did you even mean it because you seem to be throwing these 'i love yous' around to everyone" silence

"if you actually wanted to snoop read the dates river, two weeks ago yes we were still doing stuff but we werent like we are now" so thats her excuse? "the dates mean nothing billie, youve hurt me again and im always running back to you, you know how much it means to me when you show me attention, commitment, when you tell me you love me but now im starting to think it was all fake"

she steps closer to me letting her hand rest on my cheek "id never lie to you mamas, ill block her and every other girl i know i want you" she said it so calmly i just wanted to kiss her

"again, im stuck in this position its like every week we are dragged into the same place" i spit feeling the lump about to pop "i dont want hollie i want you" and it sounded unreal, it was like she spoke the words ive wanted to hear since i was 15

"you waited to long to tell me this billie, i wasted 4 years of my life waiting for you, and you tell me this now? when im 19"

"i want you, i want to make you smile, laugh, hold your hand in mine when things get to hard for you, i want to be the one to get down on one knee and ask you to marry me river im stupid and i do and say alot of shit but this is real, im sorry for my mistakes and ill change and ill work on my self because i want you"

shes never given me an actually apology before, and it meant the world to me that i finally got to hear it, "just promise me this is forever" "i promise"

and she kissed me, i just want to be happy.

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I FEEL LIKE THE STORIES GETTING BETTER TBH...
THE PAST FEW CHAPTERS HAVE BEEN COMPLETE SHIT IM SORRY 🫶🏽