take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 21•

river pov:

its been two weeks since everything at the party, billie and ashley are still together noah is the happiest man alive and daisy is just getting bigger every week and im so excited

i filled them in on what happened at the party and they were happy but shocked, ever since then ive been craving her

we haven't spoken much since ashley told billie to stay away from me, but billies been visiting us and buying daisy lots of baby stuff so cute

i get up and take a long hot shower, thinking about what my life has came to recently...

i turn 19 tomorrow and im so excited im finally getting older but the days arent getting easier especially without my dad.

i mean if he knew i was home-wrecking a relationship he would kill me but im addicted to her like a drug, billie eilish is my drug

i step out the shower do my skin care and blow dry my hair

after i get changed into sweats and a plain white shirt and head to living room, i see daisy watching friends by her self so i decide to go join

"wheres noah" i say laying on her lap "he went to get me snacks ive been craving ice cream so much" she laughs running her hands through my hair, daisy and noah are 20 noah is older by two months just like me and billie..

daisy is like a sister to me "so any new news about you and billie" "not really she hasnt spoken to me as much because of ashley" she rolls her eyes "shes still with her" she shakes her head "yeah but i feel bad, im homewrecking her relationship i know ashley doesnt like me but if someone did that to me id be pissed"

daisy will always tell me if im in the wrong which i appreciate so much she gives me the best advice "its wrong yes but its worse because billie wont break it off with either you or ashley" i nod in agreement "but if this was three years ago she'd choose me" i sigh and continue to watch friends with daisy, before i know it im asleep

"river" i hear "river marlow" i feel someone shaking me "yeah" i say confused "i woke you up, you were literally sweating" "oh sorry" i smile "did you have a bad dream or something"

"i dont remember" she laughs with me and we spent the whole day together and it was nice to take my mind off of billie

short chapter today, sorry...